I can't stop crying
I'm a 13M and I can't stop crying whenever I get yelled at by my mom or anyone, like for today she yelled at me for not cleaning myself properly, going as far out to call me dirty. This has happened multiple times before with my mom, I barely cry since I'm afraid to be called bayot (gay in bisaya), or something not masculine, but whenever I get like a strong feeling to cry I just can't stop, I started talking to my close friend about my mental health and she really helps by just listening. I'm trying my best to improve my mental health but my mom can't stop getting angry at me for small and big problems like studying and stuff, she gets really mad and starts yelling loudly, idk how to improve with her constantly yelling at me. I'm scared to talk to her about this, I'm scared that she will go on another yelling spree and telling me that I'm ungrateful, I just wish she had the emotional intelligence to stop and listen without yelling, I barely even talk back to her and I try my hardest to be the best, which she sees my efforts and appreciates it, though not very well, if I get a good score she would not be as happy I expect her to be, i just wish my mom can just stop and listen.