u/Low-Concentrate1055

I've been meaning to lose weight for a long time, but the constant fucking stress from this university, along with the fact I always walked to class and went to the arc to manage said stress, helped me to go from 410 to 280, with me well on my way to 220.

I've struggled to lose weight for years, so thanks, I guess???

I have to complain about this.

The University, an Engineering University full of fucking nerds, gave MatPat a tiny ass room in the Union? I had friends who had waited since 4, and they still couldn't get in. Yet they gave fucking Charlie Kirk, a racist, homophobic pedophile supporter, a fucking auditorium to spout his fascist bullshit. Not only that, but they promised a live stream and then just... didn't do it. At all.

I don't blame the staff, or anyone there, but that was fucking godawful, and fuck the Union. I had three fucking exams today, and I wanted something good to remember. I know this literally doesn't fukcing matter, but fuck me.

I hope every time you put on your shoes, it's filled with LEGO piece 39262.

What the actual fuck is wrong with you?

I don't know why I do this, but I just can't cooperate with my eyesight. Like, for instance, there's this problem where I'll look at someone and think "Oh hey I know them/Oh hey they look cool" etc. and I want to talk to them, but I end up going into a loop of being terrified they dont' want to talk to me/I'll bother them/I'll be weird and creepy and often just end up accidentally and awkwardly staring at people before looking away.

Like, I was at a party the other day with my sports club, and one of my teammates, who I'm chill with, started talking to/dancing with these two people that walked up to him. I wanted to go over and see if I could join their convo (and also because one of them was getting really handsy with him, and he seemed uncomfortable), but I ended up just looking around at people, accidentally staring, and being really awkward.

It's not a thing I mean to do; I just genuinely want to be social, talk to people, and potentially make friends. I'm just really awkward about it, and I'm really awkward with my eye contact and placement. It also doesn't help that loud music fucks with my sensory issues, and I don't know how to start conversations. I don't know, I just worry I come off as weird/uncomfortable to people.