u/LuckyNumberthe13

Tw self harm, feelings of torture

I was doing pretty good earlier but rn im sorta wondering if the nurses and other workers enjoyed watching us suffer. They didnt really do much for me or others it seemed. Just sorta kept us totally prisoner for them. Made me suffer just a little longer today, telling me I'd leave at 3 but it was actually 4. They were practically begging me to bang my head as hard as possible just to keep me there longer. I couldn't stand it.

Ik these are probably psychotic thinkings and i shouldn't entertain them. but im also just really suspicious of the place

Tv was making fun of me. Making me look like an idiot. I cant stand it sometimes. Always talking about me everyone is.

The tv made fun of me, because i quit my job randomly because i am losing my mind. They probably talking about me too. Everyone laughing at me for what i did

Any other trans or nonbinary or otherwise genderqueer people here? Sometimes i worry people will put off my identity just because of my schizophrenia, but i know those two are unrelated as ive been nonbinary since i was a teen before i was diagnosed

This morning im at work i keep seeing men walking behind me and like people talking. Also see animals, and everything goes away when i look directly at it.