u/Lucky_Meet_4094

Although I know I have to since our arguement,mentioned in previous post.

I havent been able to relax ever since im constantly streesed and have a cortisol belly now that wont go away.

My heart is racing and I cannot sleep well next to him.

I feel so alone though and constantly misunderstood by others im tired..

I have lost hope of things in life getting better,every 2 years I have to leave restaurant jobs cause coworkers start being mean/condescending out of nowhere to me.

Im grieving and I have noone to open up to,my mom goes and tell everyone what I said and has more than once paint me as the bad person.

My granny used to be one of those people I could open up to no judgement,unless needed. :(

I wonder how bad of a person I was in my previous life to go through so much trauma in life and on top of that realised it happens cause of my autism..

I just need a hug and understanding from someone really..

As per title.

Last week on our first day of holidays we had an argument.

Then he said how he feels that im not appreciative enough by the way I react when he does sth for me or when he gives me a gift.(I tend to not be overly enthusiastic but still thankful) and says his coworkers are more appreciative of what he does.

Then he says that he walk on eggshells around me and I asked him to explain what I do and he says that im too blunt with how I speak.

Then I said "why even continue dating,you know im autistic,you listed all these behaviours that wont change".He then said he feels too attached to me to let me go like...

We continued our holidays but I noticed ever since my heart has been racing and legs keep moving and then I got incredibly sick and now we are back to our flat and feel nonstop stressed while he acts like nothing happened.

As title says,they market bedsits on very good rate but it had me thinking,what's the catch?

They also asked for a subscription fee for them to find me a place(which I didnt give) so theres that.

As title says work-friendship-relationship has been unnecessarily difficult.

I see other young people at work that have it so easy and remember how I was bullied and tormented at their age. It is so unfair and has not completely stopped happening.

When I used to talk to my old friends about all the stuff I've been through they'd say "wow you've been through a lot" or that im victimising myself.

Currently live with BF(32m) but miss having my own space so bad and he has his issues to work through,though I know it could be worse hearing the horror stories from others.

Anyways im just getting tired of feeling alone,not understood and excluded.

Kept being hopeful telling myself it gets better but for me it hasn't got any better.

Been thinking how I was bullied at every hospitality job I have due to seeing the two receptionists at my job looking at me and laughing from afar.

I dont care anymore,im mentally checked out at this point. My issue is how I wish all of this had happened in an office job so I could now have enough experience to work remotely.

I've been to so many hospitality establishments for the past 10 years and a very small supervisor stint and have nothing to show up for it.

All this bullying and tears for nothing!!

Im studying now but im so exhausted since I have ambitions,I want to be something in this life but I realise that will not happen.

As title says work-friendship-relationship has been unnecessarily difficult.

I see other young people at work that have it so easy and remember how I was bullied and tormented at their age. It is so unfair and has not completely stopped happening.Funnily enough one of the new hires who is a young girl(21f) doesn't like me(30f) and turns her back on me in group settings.

When I used to talk to my old friends about all the stuff I've been through they'd say "wow you've been through a lot" or that im victimising myself.

Currently live with BF(32m) but miss having my own space so bad and he has his issues to work through,though I know it could be worse hearing the horror stories from others.

Anyways im just getting tired of feeling alone,not understood and excluded.

Kept being hopeful telling myself it gets better but for me it hasn't got any better.

Tldr:Recently ive been having this pain and cramping and it affects me cause I love walking and my job is a physical demanding one.

Post:It started with intense toe cramping and stiffness where my partner had to carry me home after work.

Now the pain has traveled to the lower right side of me leg.

After heat gel,resting for 2 days and ice,I tried to go for a walk today and the same pain on the leg happened.

Im fairly young and my bmi is of normal level.

I hike and walk quite a lot.

My family has a history of blood thickness and my father had a heart attack relating to not diagnosing it earlier.

Edit:I booked a GP appointment,hope i get an answer