i want to recover but i just can’t i need advice
hi everyone. i thought i would never want to recover, but here i am! i struggled with anorexia a bit when i was younger but it wasn’t as bad as it is currently. ny ex gf had anorexia and i just slowly started to copy her habits. we broke up and my anorexia just came back full swing. i got on adhd medication which is SUPER helpful for me and basically allows me to survive in daily life lol. but one of the side effects was loss of appetite. i literally stopped feeling hungry… so it got easier to fall deeper into anorexia. i went to the doctor recently and i thought i didn’t really lose that much weight. i won’t say numbers but it was a lot and she told me that if i lose any more she will have to take me off my meds. so i’ve been trying to eat more calories and exercise less but whenever i eat it just makes me feel so bloated and my stomach will hurt so badly. and i get such bad anxiety from that because i have emetophobia. and sometimes food will just randomly become unappetizing to me :( but anyway i thought i was doing better lately but i weighed myself today and i lost even more weight. i just really need advice from people who have gone through this because i feel so stuck and frustrated. i want to eat and i want to recover but its so hard. i feel so afraid of food. any help is appreciated 💗