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Hi everyone, I’m a 21-year-old newcomer, and I’m looking for some insights on a deeply specific experience that has unfolded over the past year.
Before I turned 20, I was just a casual fan of horror movies and the occult. But at 20, something shifted. I felt an intense, undeniable pull toward Lucifer. It wasn't just a surface-level interest; I felt drawn to his philosophy, history, and who he truly is. However, shortly after I started researching him, some major life accidents and stresses occurred regarding my studies and daily life. Because of that, I had to stop my research. Even though I tried to ignore it, the intense dreams and the feeling of a presence around me only grew stronger.
At first, I dismissed it as curiosity or overactive imagination. But over the last year, it has grown much stronger. I’ve started feeling distinct presences around me and sometimes feel like eyes are on me at certain moments. Recently, out of nowhere, these strong urges came back without any external trigger. I keep feeling this deep inner voice telling me, "I need to do something. I need to perform a ritual, light incense, and communicate."
What confuses me the most is that while most people naturally turn to God, Christ, or the light, my heart is being intensely pulled toward the dark side—towards entities like Lucifer and other demons. I want to clarify that I don’t have bad or malicious intentions; I have absolutely no desire to harm anyone. I consider myself a good person, yet I am profoundly drawn to this alternative path.
Early this year, after randomly looking into Lucifer's sigil again, my eyes suddenly got locked onto a completely different, non-mainstream symbol. I researched it and found out it belongs to Sitri. Since then, I’ve been experiencing a very specific feeling that is hard to put into words, but I want to clarify it to get the right advice:
It is NOT a superficial craving, a desperate longing, or being head-over-heels infatuated with him. It is absolutely NOT about being attracted to his form or wanting anything of a lustful nature with an entity. Instead, it feels like Lucifer opened the gate, but Sitri is the one calling me right now.
// please..