u/Mad_House09

Good morning! How are things and you?

So... I had the most delightful dream of you today.

I will forever curse my alarm for going off, I think that if it didnt wake me up I wouldve stayed there forever.

You know when you wake up from a great dream and you just lay there going over it, absorbing everything?

It took me a couple of minutes today, I couldnt even hit the snooze after waking up from that. I mean, it would be a shame for any other dream to follow up after that... How could I follow up to that? Im having trouble tuning in to real waking life after that.

It wasnt even anything grand, well, for me it was, what I mean is that it wasnt us riding a pegasus to disneyland while eating cotton candy clouds or anything.

It was just us meeting, realistic, and the immediate follow up of that.

There wasnt any kisses or any inappropriate amount of touching, just a hug and us talking, when people would let us. Cause people were always stealing you from me and we could never finish the conversation, but we kept finding each other.

There was no pressure to anything, no expectations (I mean, you brought me candy so maybe that counts as a big expectation lol), just you and I, existing in the same room, talking about nothing at all and everything... The most complicated question was if your birthday was really on that date.

The universe is funny, it always does that... It did back in december too, remember?

On my good moments I always wish of dreaming of you and I get nothing, but whenever I'm extra frustrated or angry it comes like clockwork... No fair, right?

Im probably gonna be drunk on that dream all day today.

... I will forever curse my alarm for waking me up.

... I couldve lived there forever.

... But we cant live in dreams, right? :(

I think that one is my favorite dream.

Good morning!

Did you sleep well or just blinked like me?

Are you gonna be super busy today?

Did I freak you out some more?

You must be thinking I can't make up my mind or that I don't know what I want, right?

Well, I know what I want, it's just that it seems to not be that simple, right?

Since the last time I wrote here (and since forever for a while really) the feelling remains... I miss ya...

You are probably being awesome out there so I'll try to focus on being at least ok on my thing too.

I hope you have a great day and week.

Sorry if I make you cringe too much lol Can't help it.

(Till I go on my next spin again...):

See ya!

Hey!

Will you be around today? (Were you around today?)

I'm weird... You were just super cold to me and I still miss you just the same. You were warm too, I see that, but you know what I'm talking about.

Yeah yeah, the dynamics of hot and cold... I can't handle that, as you said before and as I know too well.

Maybe I'm thinking too highly of myself when I say the psychological stuff behind that doesn't affect me, but it's for real, it never did before. Which only makes it weirder for me. I've been a no-bs kind of person, I'm not saying your behaviour is bs, I understood what you said when you explained but some of it feels like it to me lol

Maybe I'm just angry.

Maybe this hot and cold thing never affected me cause I was never interested before, but I'm just as susceptible as everyone else, I just "needed" the right person to trigger it.

Or maybe not... Maybe I still think it's nonsense and I wanna turn around and never look back, and it's not the psychological stuff that is keeping me, it's you.

You... You are different, good different. There isn't a soul on this planet that will convince me otherwise. I don't care which field they might use to try to explain it to me, you felt different even before, you felt different when I looked at you...

I'm sorry this freaks you out (it freaks me out too), but I knew you were going to be special even before I knew what I was knewing lol

Funny thing is I still know nothing... I just miss you.

Argh... I don't want to write anymore, I don't want to read anymore.

I miss you! I miss you! I miss you!

...How come I miss you?

Whats up? How are you doing?

General missing you today (still freaks me out but well...)...

Are you mad at me or something? Or do you think Im mad at you? Im not!

It always seems to be more or less it with us, huh? Kinda sad, dont you think?

Anyway, good day today.

See ya!

Hey, so did you slept well?

Good morning, dork!

I hope you have a great day today (and all days, really).

Feeling kinda weird, lately, idk, about something I dont even know... I shouldnt, right?

Writing here cause I think we are gonna miss each other, today.

Anyway, see ya!

Just wanted to say "hi".

I think we are gonna miss each other today (well, I do miss you everyday but thats not what I mean), so just wondering how are you and how is your day going (as always).

C ya!

Are you okay? Is everything okay?

I hope you are having a good day.

So, I've read a couple of things that are no good for all the sides of my insanity, makes me wonder...

Do you think I would have taken the hint by now if werent for four months ago? I think maybe, idk, I might have... I really dont know.

You hate when I question that, right? Four months ago, I mean... Do you really dont like repeating yourself or is it that you think I do it as a joke or something? Or is it that you think that if you keep me in this ambiguous limbo I'll finally take the hint?

Do you want me to take the hint?

Or do you want me to be patient still? That is, if you ever wanted that.

I feel like screaming until my throat go sore and at the same time I want to go mute... Like I said, I annoy even myself with this.

The same goes for what I want to talk to you... There is so much I wanna say but also I dont wanna say anything anymore.

...

Anyway, take care.

How are you doing? How are things? Are you okay? Is everything okay?

I hope it is.

What have you been thinking about, lately? I always wonder...

I have been trying to spare you from the full moon transformation thingy lol

... And myself from the any-moon hurt thingy lol

You know...

Good morning (afternoon and night)!

Just wishing you a good day overall, and I hope you are okay (always).