u/Majestic-Conflict626

I tried February-March, but didn’t really give it my all until April. I was VERY consistent with filming, hashtags, scheduled daily posts on the FYP, upping pricing, adding multiple tiers, etc. and I started taking promo on reddit seriously, which also helped grow my account/karma immensely. The fanslynewbies sub really came in clutch, but now my karma is too high to post there. And the other fansly subreddits seem to gain nearly no traction. Along with my niche subreddits, it definitely helps boost my reddit. but there has been nearly no conversion to subs. And I have nearly no desire to film now after April. ugh.🫠 yes, I’ve tried posting just lewds/nudes, lots gift codes, promos, verifying in new subreddits, but no one is biting. I hope I can get out of this funk. i think hitting the top 12% freaked me out a little bit. I was very ecstatic and of course I want to succeed on fansly, ideally I would love to reach top 1% someday, but yet I don’t ever want fame which is the most contradicting part of it all.

i know it’s selfish of me, but even just a simple “hey” would make my day.

i really wish i didn’t drunk text you & spam your phone so many times asking how you’re doing.

its out of character for me i know & just pushing you farther away, i genuinely feel so ridiculous.

how convenient is it that almost 5 years later all these feelings come rushing in for an unrequited love.

an unrequited love that was my fault.

for what it’s worth, shortly after we parted ways i went through some pretty bad things. i don’t say this out of pity, but out of feeling the need to give more of an explanation on why i’ve been so erratic.

it felt like time stopped, like as if the earth stopped spinning on its axis but somehow only for me. everyone went on with their lives. but i’m still stuck there in that same year. the year i met you. and all i can think about is how happy i was before my life went so wrong.

i managed to block this out for a few years, with work, my previous relationship, keeping busy. but now that i’m away from that and i’ve moved again and life has finally slowed down.

i can’t help but feel like I’ve time traveled back there, but yet this time no one is home.

what do you mean we haven’t seen each other in years…??

i blinked and all this time has been ripped right from underneath me.

thankful for the growth, but i burned myself out… struggling so much getting back on track.