u/Major-Wrongdoer-5135

Hey guys, been wanting to join vastranova. How are the people there? Are they judgy? Will they be welcoming? And on what merits are they selecting?

Hi, I'm F(17, Indian). I was caught up in a dispute over going out with my friends. I was already not talking to my mom cuz of a major fight which happened b/w us. For context: i live in a joint family with my uncle, 2 aunts, my grandmother and 2 sisters(we're not siblings). My mum came into my room and asked me to not go, I asked her why I should not go, my mum said that you're going out daily and you're becoming a failure(I don't smoke,drink and i don't have a bf). Then the fight started, I started to talk back that why are you stopping me from hanging out cuz either way imma be going to a college in another state in a month and this is the only time I can hangout with em. So my mum started to slut shame me she called me a "randi" which means a prostitute. So i started to argue even more cuz how can she call me that, this resulted in a physical fight. She started to slap me and pull my hair and scratch my hands and stuff. In an attempt to save me I was pushing her and ended up kicking her on her stomach to get her off me. And then she started to cry saying that i had beaten her and she started to abuse me. In the fit of the rage, I started to abuse her back and was disrespectful(which I'm totally accountable for). She started to grab things to throw at me and she threw my makeup pouch in which I had a deodorant bottle made of glass which directly hit my head, this raged me even more and I started to name call her (witch and stuff) this escalated even more and she started to beat me even more. Then I told her that you ain't my mom, stop beating me and abusing me. (For context: my father has always been absent from my life) Then my mother told me that if I'm not your mom then I'll not pay for your college tuition and ask the college to repay me rn. And that I only love her money acc to her. She's asking me to leave the house and was dragging me by hair to make me leave. She threw all my stuff out of the house too. And my grandmother and the 2nd aunt were the reason for all of these. Idk what to do. I don't have any financial support as well. I'm seriously considering to off myself cuz I can't take ts anymore.