out of 6 majors this acad yr, i only passed 2 and i’m about to be dismissed. do something ref 🥀
currently 3rd yr, but 2nd yr standing, for some reason, this year was so harder than usual, last sem, i only passed 1 math major out of 3, this sem only 1 math math out of 3 as well (2 kwatros and 2 singkos). i’m really tired and scared of what’s to come. there were already signs i was burned out at the start of this year but i was already in a decrepit state long before UP because i was from a sci high, but i didn’t acted upon it because my family doesn’t want me to take LOA, so I was forced to keep going. i’m so tired ref, i’m doing as much as i can to make it better and its hard if you have a condition called adhd, and i might be actually dismissed again, i powered through my 2nd year and had no fail during that year, hence i overworked myself.
i want to play again ref, i love the game ref, i want my degprog ref, don’t do this to me ref. let me rest but i’ll play again ref, for fuck’s sake let me play ref.
i talked with my family, their best compromise was underload, which i have no problems about it. if i were (hopefully not) got dismissed, i hope they could understand, i really kept increasing those adhd meds dose just to keep up and already developed habits of studying. but i guess it’s either i’m not in a propert mental state or there’s something inefficient in my studying. i don’t know but god damn i’m still determined as fuh to graduate in my wanted program. i’m just unsure how to go forward with me being burned out and not having an efficient system yet despite already having such habits.