u/MannerEfficient6096

>!Here are the things I actually remember about you. We decided to take some time off from seeing each other but I think this will be important to write down here because we’ve been bickering like an old married couple. There’s always a lot of attention surrounding what I do and who I date, and I think it!<

>!1. Our first date at the restaurant near us, we found out we live right next door to each other and afterwards you went home and your roommate asked if there will be a second date and you said that yes, you hope so. You messaged me a couple days later and asked why I didn’t text you after the first date, you were waiting for my message and thought you maybe said something wrong.!<

>!2. Our walk all the way to the botanical gardens and we talked about our favorite books, and I remember that yours was about that man from Japan but you forgot the name of the book. You reading David Goggin’s book I think called You Can’t Hurt Me was one of the first things that got me intrigued by you. You’re incredibly intelligent and the way your mind works is something to behold. I really love you, it’s rare to see someone so beautiful and messy at the same time (like yours truly).!<

>!This is what made you such a good partner, and I didn’t thank you enough for all of the times you were just so loving, so steadfast in standing with me.!<

>!3. Playing billiards with you and you hit the lamp and said you were redecorating.!<

>!4. Many movies (good and bad) we watched together. Michael (where I fell asleep), Mortal Kombat (was so bad), I think Odyssey was memorable because it was so long but you held onto my arm the entire time that it still smells like you.!<

>!4. Our countless photos of yellow cars. And I admit, you were better and definitely were impressively committed to taking so many photos of yellow cars. Our chat history is probably 80% pictures of yellow cars.!<

>!5. The matcha latte places we went to and pinned on Google Maps. I wish I planned more fun things to do together.!<

>!6. Pixel and the theater, the time when we went to the concert, which was quite okay. The play was really nice but I also almost fell asleep there.!<

No matter what I think I do find myself thinking of you in a positive light.

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Hello,

I don't know if you'll see this, but I'll get straight to the point. I'd like you to be straightforward, and if somehow this space is actually being used as a medium for communication, then I think we may know the issue. At least one. I really love you, and I think you're a special person in general. I don't know what's going on in your life, but I feel us slipping away, and possibly, if I don't put the right words down here then you may never truly get to know what I truly think about you. So here it is:

You're very loveable. More than anyone I've met. Truly. You have a sense of humor that I can see myself growing old with. You just have a way of making me laugh with your gestures, etc. I truly enjoyed every minute of time spent with you, although I think we may have missed out on many potentially great moments and experiences, because life, as it typically does, got in the way. Who knows, I'll let you be, and if you want to talk, just come over. It will always be open for you.

Hey, these are not going to be my best words, so bare with me. Firstly, and most importantly, I am so sorry for the words that I said. I was stuck between being angry at you, and remembering you as I have known you for the past few months. Of course, if I could, I would take back not only the words but the past couple weeks. As you know, I always say and do what first comes to my mind, without hesitation. But lately, the words seem to come out in a way that doesn't resemble how they are shaped in my mind and I have a hard time being and feeling like someone I recognize.

I am sorry for hurting you with my words, especially because you and I used to be so close. I wanted to get through this alone, which even at this moment, I am unsure if it was right or wrong. I don't want you to be collateral damage while I work to create this life I wanted (I had you in mind of course) and so I am not reaching out until I am finished with it all. I really cherished our time together, never before had talking with someone been so effortless. I fell in love with your sense of humor, it really was one of a kind. Your mind works in a way that is incredibly beautiful, and I hope one day I can uncover more of who you are because you are so beautiful inside and out. Truly.

Let's reconvene when we are ready. I'll always love you.