I am 19yo I’m 145 and 5’9 I just bought my first stack of mk677,rad140 and ostarine I’ve had no experience with sarms before I want to get as big as I can and put on quite a bit of weight and can add more to the stack based off what I’m trying to go for and what would be a a good amount to take dally I’ve been doing .5 ml but it seems like to little to me but I don’t really know can someone explain and give me some advice
When I was 17 I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and limerence Schizophrenia does not really affect me when I stay on my medication but I recently stopped taking it Before I stopped taking it life felt dull and unreal almost like I was just going through the motions but after stopping I started feeling more emotions again even though things have gotten harder mentally I also have a serious problem with cocaine I use it every day when I wake up before work and during my lunch break It has become part of my routine and I know it is fucking me
On nights when I’m alone I have been abusing Benadryl but it has not helped Instead it has caused scary experiences like talking to people that aren’t even there or a thousand spiders crawling on me it has made my mental health worse I do not understand why I keep doing it but I think I am trying to cope with something I feel like I am losing control of my life I do not know what to do I feel alone exhausted and I am struggling to handle my life right now i need a refresh or lack of empathy for myself