does this ever end? I can’t even go in my house
tw: episode?
Sitting in the car outside my apartment because sometimes just driving around is therapy.
Just sobbing, grieving my 6 month old child who is VERY MUCH ALIVE.
My husband is waiting for me inside with the baby. He’s such a good partner and father.
I sometimes in these ruts feel like I should offer him an out, he deserves so much better than this.
I feel like he got stuck with someone that’s crazy. This whole thing makes me feel crazy.
I am Feeling like I rushed the days away too much I guess.
Absolute episode.
I am getting back on meds Tuesday :) my insurance stopped covering them and wanted $800 a month. I got it resolved.
I am generally a well written person but feel like I’m going absolutely crazy.
I did text the Maternal Mental Health line :)
Do not feel any sort of ideations or anything. I’ve been struggling with insomnia and feel like a lot of this is directly caused by sleep deprivation.
Thank you for reading this mess 💕