Day eight sober on a 3 week international trip but have huge stash waiting for me
For context I was doing 800-1000mg (supposedly) of 7oh a day just a single dose all together in either the mid day or closer to night gradually got up to that dose after 8 months of abuse initially I was fine with even 50mg per day but it went up pretty quickly and all I’d look forward to was copping and getting fucked up for the night to earn a night of rest. Felt like a sick responsibility I had to uphold. I think the last two months was when it hiked up to around 500mg+ range. Anyways I took my last dose on the way to the airport and started withdrawing badly during my layover. Insane fucking leg cramps and restless legs, nose dripping like ajunkie and lethargic as hell i was up for the first 5 ish days straight till I finally caught 2 beautiful hours of the shittiest sleep ever. Day eight now and finally got a full 7 hours of sleep and haven’t thought about it that deeply but I know that I have 4 and half bottles of 2,000mg each 100mg pills waiting for me at home alongside some boutiq dispos too I am trying to figure out if I can trust myself to responsibly use them after I get back now that I’m feeling somewhat normal again. I was considering something like 3 days on and 4 days off? Till it’s finished and it’s also gone in my state in higher dosages than 1mg per pill since July 1st. So reupping is out of the question once that runs out. Please take into account the decreased tolerance when I arrive back and past relevant history. Would appreciate any and all feedback or personal experience. Thanks yall. Peace and love, be safe everyone!