Family is way too negative and it’s draining
I normally hate the idea of posting on reddit but I’ve been ranting to my friends a little too much that I need to rant here so they can catch a break. I also have no idea how to navigate with the rage my parents instill in me.
I (20F) have started to notice just how incredibly negative and mean my family is for literally no reason whatsoever.
When I was vacationing in India, I was talking to my mom about how it was tiring how people in India (mostly my family) are so negative, judgmental, and take everything too seriously. My mom agreed and said it was tiring her, so I thought we were on the same page. Guess not.
Came back to the US and started to understand why I was so badly behaved back in high school. Since I’ve started college, I haven’t been home much and even when I was home over the summer, I was working a 9-5 so I didn’t really spend time with my parents much.
Now I notice my parents are always complaining about something, always being judgmental about something, and are incredibly sensitive and can’t take a joke or handle a situation without getting angry or yelling. It’s genuinely mood killing and I hate whenever my parents interact with me. I’ve learned trying to argue or reason is not useful, so I tend to lock myself in the room if I start to get pissed off.
Even my brother is just so mean for no reason. It’s crazy because he’s super nice to his friends but he genuinely looks down on me for some reason.
I just feel sad now. I can’t stand the thought of being here for another month. I was planning to go to the library everyday to study and try to hang out with my friends as much as possible but my mom always gets weird about me having friends and I’m like omg I’m sorry you only have toxic friendships maybe it’s because you’re a mean person who is always talking about your friends being fat or ugly bruh 😭