u/Master-Mousse7370

i know nobody probably remembers, but two weeks ago i uploaded here.

all i can say is WOW!!! i didn’t think it would blow up like that at ALL. i was overwhelmed with the amount of support from people and the kind words and just people giving me amazing advice and support.

i just wanted to say that I GOT A JOB!!!!! after a little under fifty applications i finally got a job and i will be working at a restaurant!!!! im so happy!

i still don’t like the way i look and im still very upset about my love life (i know that’s pathetic to say but i am) but everyone calling me beautiful made me feel so special!!! i’ve never really been told that before; i felt like a princess which for some reason is very embarrassing to admit lol😅😅😅

i’m still not close with my family (duh) but i’ve learned to just tune them out. i’m going to try and go out of my way to make friends more often as i still am very lonely.

a few days ago i turned 19 and i tried to invite friends i had around here to hangout for my birthday but they ended up ditching me last minute. i decided that if i make friends who don’t even care about hanging out with me, then they probably aren’t worth having.

i’m on a bit of a high right now from the great news of getting a new job, and i hope i don’t come down anytime soon.

thank you all again!!!

edit: guys just because i don’t want to respond to your dms flirting with me doesn’t make me a bot 😭😭😭

i actually don’t really like these photos anymore 😅 i was still learning how to do my makeup so my lips look super thin. this was actually my first cosplay done 100% by me though!!! ignore that in the first two images my collar is folded under my vest 😓 nobody told me lol

the only thing i’m ever consistently told is the girl from death note (still need to watch that lol) and the blonde hex girl.

the weirdest one ive ever gotten was being told i looked like a cross between daryl dixon and ramona flowers?

other than that i dont think i really resemble anyone, lol

it’s super embarrassing for me to post on reddit like this (and i hate showing my face because im insecure) but i really need some kind words right now. i might get shy and delete this in the morning

literally nothing is going good right now. i’m home from college for the summer (not that it was going great there) and im with my family who constantly make fun of me/my hobbies/how i look. i’ve applied to over twenty jobs and only two have emailed me back and it has been to reject me. my love life is an actual joke; my last ex left me kind of out of nowhere and he told me that i was ugly and annoying and nobody would ever want to date me (after i begged him to stay like a loser.) it was my first relationship in a year, following a two month humiliationship where i was 100% being cheated on the whole time and that guy left me because i wouldn’t have sex with him, and that one followed one where i was physically and verbally abused. i have horrible luck with men, and im bisexual, but my luck with women is worse if you can believe it. i have no friends at all except for a few online ones who are constantly too busy to hangout anyway. im horrifically shy so i can’t even reach out to people without feeling awful. all i do all day is walk around outside, play video games, apply to jobs, and cry.

i am so sorry for the vent fest and long string of words. i turn 19 in a few weeks and i have nobody to even celebrate with me. im broke, lonely, and i feel totally disgusting.

edit: everyone’s responses have been so nice!!! it is making me very emotional lol. i might not respond to dms because again i am very shy!!! i can barely talk to cashiers so strangers online is a struggle for me lol. thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart genuinely.

edit 2: stop dming me if i have onlyfans??? i do not??? what the fuck

sorry for deleting and reposting the original lol i forgot the little photo of her at the end

might have to retire her soon… my hair is starting to get wayyy too long which sucks

i’ve posted my temari cosplay here before, but it’s way different now and i also look way different now. this chest plate was actually my first ever time working with EVA foam, and I made it about a year ago! i might have to retire my temari cosplay soon because my hair is getting too long 😢

this is kind of a super embarrassing post to make on a subreddit where most of the people i see are having actual problems but this has really been eating at me for a while and i don’t have a ton of friends/ any friends i feel understand me very well on this.

i’m a cosplayer, and i have been since i was 13 (i’m about to turn 19 soon!!) and i’m trying to break into the professional scene right now. i sew everything, i do foam armor/foam crafting, i do prop making, i deal with wigs, i do makeup, and when i’m not in classes for college i’m usually sewing/doing cosplay stuff (or playing silent hill 2.)

i do not consider myself an attractive person by any means whatsoever, but that is only because growing up i was really bullied for how i looked. after my junior year of high school i had a big glow up and people treat me WAY differently now, but still not great a lot of the time and i still hate how i look.

this is relevant because i keep getting people (whether its unprompted at conventions or at my college’s cosplay club or comments online) are saying really cruel things about my work/me as a person. i get slut shamed frequently and i’m constantly told that the only reason some of my stuff gets popular online is because people think im hot and as a “conventionally attractive cosplayer” i don’t have to work hard. it stings extra bad when i get these comments from women. i get these comments in both revealing cosplays and cosplays where you can only see the skin of my face and hands. what sucks especially is that i’m my clubs designated “hot cosplayer” (I DID NOT WANT NOR GIVE MYSELF THIS TITLE) so nobody else really understands my issue there, and the way that they talk to me about it can feel really demeaning.

i’m scared that maybe they’re all right about me, because most of my viewers/followers online are men making comments about my appearance. my DMs on reddit especially genuinely look disgusting. as much as i love cosplay, you can only get so many rape threats/sexual remarks before you feel pretty put off. the hard part is knowing that IS the reason your posts are blowing up. they just wanna have sex with you.

maybe it stings extra bad because this is usually the reason a lot of my relationships in real life go. they like how i look and then when i wont immediately have sex with them they leave. my last relationship made sure to tell me how ugly and annoying i was before he left, too, so it’s especially raw.

i wont stop cosplaying. i’m not a good at a whole lot, but i know i’m good at this. i just don’t really know anyone i can relate to on this, and i feel so isolated. i’m not pretty enough for normal people, but apparently i’m too much for this crowd. the worst part of this is that it doesn’t even make me feel prettier. i genuinely DO still think i’m ugly.

sorry this is such a nothing burger problem compared to a lot of the other stuff here, i just really have nowhere else to go. if anyone has some advice/nice words id really appreciate it right now.

i’m having a vanilla red bull and a coconut popsicle for a snack 💖😋 i prefer the coconut red bull but it was still good

edit: i think a lot of people are misunderstanding my “professional” comment!!! i just meant i wanted to start doing more advanced stuff and participating in competitions (and maybe a little bit greedily getting more popular online 😞)

trust me i do NOT want my job to be cosplay. like at all.

i’ve posted in here before but it was a year ago and i think i look very different now lol, if this flops i’ll be embarrassed
i’ve done shadowheart from bg3, temari from naruto, juliet from lollipop chainsaw, im currently working on astrid from httyd 2 and i have plans for d’arce from fear and hunger!!
i like pretty much everything so any suggestions are good!!!! please no misa amane 😢 i like her it’s just that i get compared to her every day lol

everyone here kind of mogs me lol i’m nervous… ignore how bad my chainsaw is!!! i only had three days to do it! i wanna do it out of foam by next year!

i’ve posted in the similar subreddit before, i just wanted to see what happens here LOL please be nice i’m very insecure

i don’t have many good photos of myself because i hate the way i look LOL sorry 😢