r/toastme

i know nobody probably remembers, but two weeks ago i uploaded here.

all i can say is WOW!!! i didn’t think it would blow up like that at ALL. i was overwhelmed with the amount of support from people and the kind words and just people giving me amazing advice and support.

i just wanted to say that I GOT A JOB!!!!! after a little under fifty applications i finally got a job and i will be working at a restaurant!!!! im so happy!

i still don’t like the way i look and im still very upset about my love life (i know that’s pathetic to say but i am) but everyone calling me beautiful made me feel so special!!! i’ve never really been told that before; i felt like a princess which for some reason is very embarrassing to admit lol😅😅😅

i’m still not close with my family (duh) but i’ve learned to just tune them out. i’m going to try and go out of my way to make friends more often as i still am very lonely.

a few days ago i turned 19 and i tried to invite friends i had around here to hangout for my birthday but they ended up ditching me last minute. i decided that if i make friends who don’t even care about hanging out with me, then they probably aren’t worth having.

i’m on a bit of a high right now from the great news of getting a new job, and i hope i don’t come down anytime soon.

thank you all again!!!

edit: guys just because i don’t want to respond to your dms flirting with me doesn’t make me a bot 😭😭😭

i wanted to take photos of my outfit the other day and was sad when i saw how my body looked :( gained at least 10 pounds while in that abusive friendship, probably more tbh. before meeting that person i was in the best shape of my life and it all went to shit. she made me gain weight on purpose by weaponizing my binge eating disorder and putting lots of food in front of me at all times. i have pcos so my exercise + diet regimen isn’t doing much to change things so im feeling very discouraged and disconnected from myself

Hopefully just age but my face always looks puffy and chubby

Sometimes we all know that life likes to get the best of us and kick us while we’re down repeatedly. I’m there right now. New mom just trying to make it through.

Recently I've been getting closer and sparking me and my girlfriends relationship back up, and I'm managing to put some distance between me and my parents. Unfortunately my grandma's condition isn't getting much better, and my little sisters are going to live in Cali, but overall my life has been on the upswing. I got a better, higher paying job, and although some of my coworkers are a bit annoying ( the super nice but slightly passive sggressive polite ones) most of them are genuinely chill. I've kind of been chudmaxxing and taking it easy since schools still out.

My body issues are getting better as I eat better and lose weight. I'm actually seeing a lot of muscle growth.

I mean, not much has changed for me, except I go into work 2 hour earlier. I'm slowly getting a bit more comfy in my own skin, y'know? Plus I've been doing a little bit of self discovery and reflection on myself and who I am as a person, and who I want to be.

I'm careful when I cross roads, I'm gentle with my little siblings, I'm patient with my parents, I'm attentive with my friends. I eat good food. I love good people.

Life is alright, I guess. Could be worse. I'd rather be okay than miserable, and that's alright. Remember, boredom is always better than despair. Oh yeah! I cut all my long hair off. I'm still conflicted on how to feel about it. I grew it out since I was like 10, and now it's buzzed and short again. Cant wait to grow it out all over again. Used to have a wolf cut.

Jarvis, give me chapter 6 and 7 of deltarune tomorrow

I just feel like things aren't going to get better. I work 40-50 hours a week at a job I'm not very passionate for just to barely make ends meet. Been single for 8 years now and feel very unapproachable. My hobbies have stagnated to a grinding halt. My gaming PC has been broken for 5 months now, so I've just been bedrotting and doomscrolling until I can get it fixed. It all leaves me in a tired cycle of mediocrity.

Maybe I'm just thinking too much. It's my #1 bad habit.

Hi everyone, names ali , due to my last post and the comments I got (unfortunately removed) , I was so sad about my weight and how I thought im not worthy of love but I do this for everyone else . But im feeling a lot better , I got a haircut , going to start working out soon , and attending to unfinished works .

Im also into story writing for myself and playing video games and these are my hobbies that make me feel much better

Thank you 💚

First off, I’m not sure if this sub allows update posts so I’m sorry if this gets taken down. Secondly, I’d like to thank you all for the kind words. I’ve been really struggling lately and appreciate those who reached out with concern. I’m currently in therapy but depression is an uphill battle.

Onto the update, I almost cancelled on going about 30 times but I had already baked cupcakes and gotten dressed up, so I went even though I was so nervous I thought I was going to throw up. And it actually went well! It was a pool party and cook out with the host bartending. I started out painfully awkward and scared but the people around me definitely went above and beyond to make me comfortable.

I actually exchanged info with a couple of the girls there I hope to have made some friends!

Anyway that’s my update, just as many of you told me I was overthinking things. Thank you again for your kindness I hope yall have a lovely Monday

I have a nice life, but have been feeling pretty emo lately due to some people close to me dying and some other stuff like that. I’ve been drinking tonight too and would just love some kindness right now. I’m a preschool teacher and a pretty good person in general

i don’t really go out much, i dropped out of in-person school so i could hide from everyone and go completely online so i don’t really have friends either

i am embarrassed to post this because i always feel a little embarrassed asking strangers to be kind to me, but i think i would quite like that anyway

i’m 21 and my heart races almost constantly as though i’m basically a rabbit pretending to be a person :’) every tiny interaction feels like it may be life or death which sucks + i am a hopeless romantic, which feels a bit ridiculous considering i’ve never had a boyfriend before (i’m not asking for one on here. please don’t leave your manners at the door)

i feel like i don’t belong to this world sometimes, but i know that’s a narcissistic way of viewing it

because of my health, my life hasn’t really gone the way i thought it would. i had to leave university, i’ve never had a job, and sometimes i look at people my age building careers and relationships in utter wonder

i would love to study philosophy someday. i don’t know if my dream will come true

in summary, i was stupid loser teenager that become a stupid loser adult. it would be lovely to be comforted in any capacity because the loneliness is eating me alive and settling into my bones