u/benzokane

I moved to a new country in March and I’ve never felt so alone in my entire life. I’m currently waiting for applications to approve so I can finish my studies, and I just sit in my room all day and sleep or scroll through my phone. It’s difficult making friends here, everyone is so mean and arrogant and they expect you to have lots of money to be deemed as “acceptable to be friends with”. When I go out I’m all alone, I’m too nervous to talk to people. I hug my pillow or my stuffed monkey to get some form of a hug, my parents barely hug me anymore. I don’t know what to do, sometimes I think I’m better off alone, but it hurts…

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Specifically Robby, his struggle through PTSD and severe depression, the underlying thoughts of suicide with some of his commentary such as “what if I don’t come back” to Dana, or even giving Dennis his place to house sit while he’s gone, with that entire conversation having a very eerie and depressing undertone, even Robby’s refusal to seek help from anyone even though his commentary is screaming “Help me, I need help!”, it really opened my eyes to my own mental health struggles and specifically, my struggle with severe suicidal thoughts.

I always tend to comment that “oh I wish I was dead” or “imagine I end up in a car accident dead because I fucked up lol” and not asking for help because I am so afraid of being a burden. Watching The Pitt and seeing Robby go through that, it was like looking at a mirror and the mirror is telling me “you are worried about this character, this character is you!!! Why aren’t you worried about yourself? Look at how it impacts everyone around you, they are worried sick about you!! Please get help”

I’m trying to get out of the habit of not asking for help, so I will say that Noah Wyle’s role in this show helped me realise that I need help before I actually commit to my plans. Thank you.

Edit: came out of my psychologist appointment, and I cried heavily. I cried so much and my psychologist told me that reaching out was the bravest thing I could do. I saw my patterns in a show and decided to get help. My nephew who is 2 years old even told my mom, “I want to be strong like my auntie” and that… that really touched me, I would’ve missed that… thank you The Pitt, from the bottom of my heart. ❤️

I once again forgot to take my fucking meds because we were out too late with family and I was so exhausted I fell asleep but then I just woke up with so much energy, I feel like I don’t need sleep
And it feels like I’m on top of the world I want to go outside and dance and run and scream and just yeah and my heart is racing so fast I need to breathe deeply but wow this feels amazing and concerning help?

I’ve always wondered which video game character had such an impactful death on the media, sure it’s subjective but still

So I’ve lost a lot of weight and because it was so rapid, I have these red, aggressive stretch marks on my tummy that kinda makes me look like I was pregnant. Is there any way to lessen the appearance of them? I’ve tried Bio-oil but it doesn’t seem to work.