u/UsefulAnnual265

I have been lonely for quite some time now it all started really well when I lost all my friends in school due to anxiety and depression and since then I haven't made a single friend I am now at college but people I have met don't like me very much and constantly make me feel small and horrible about my self constantly making fun of my appearance and then they just call it banter like what do you mean banter this is just bullying and I want to say I am a average looking guy not ugly but defently not handsome.

And now I hate how I look and feel so pathetic but anyways what I want to know is does anyone have advice on how to make friends when you have none I want to have a social life but that seems increasingly less possible the older I get for context I'm 19 now tuning twenty soon

I'm going to kill myslef

I am so ugly it is horrific how can I ever show my face in public someone said to me that they never been scared of a human before they met me and that I look like a predator to ugly to have friends to ugly to be alive I just want to end it I can never find love and I'm not even a bad person I'm kind to evryone I try to be healthy but being ugly makes my life impossible to live i hate my nose I hate my eyes and just about everything about me I'm disgusted by what I see every time I look in the mirror.

I'm back here on this subreddit and it feels like defeat I downloaded tinder in hopes of finding someone and coming off it feeling hopeless everyone on there are so hollow I just want to be understood and seen and the people I have in my life right now are so ignorant and I hate them they don't care to understand me and only make assumptions. I want to find love and to care for someone but I never will all my life being lonely I'm sick of it all I want is to experience love it's not fair all these dickheads and male fucking meatheads get to be with someone they will never truly love someone when all they are in the relationship for is sex. When I see couples together in public I feel so lonely and so sad because I know that i will never experience being close to someone and love someone.