u/priyallalaa

So yeah. I didn’t manage to escape home even though I said I would before and now I feel kinda pathetic. I had the most incredible dream last night that I escaped home and was living a life of freedom.

I’ve been trying to exercise more and eat healthy food. I’ve been loving oatmeal lately! I’m still trying to work on my confidence, especially with my hair, some days I feel it looks okay and some days I feel like it looks awful 😭

I still feel so incredibly tired though, most days i genuinely cannot sleep until 12-1 am which sucks because I just feel sleepy throughout the day.

I’ve also been trying to sort out finances for university because I do not want to use my parents money for uni honestly. I really hate both of them. I hate my abusive, misogynistic and racist parents. They’re absolutely awful people.

I’m planning to ask the university about accommodation and also about getting a student loan possibly.

The first 6 photos are from styles I tried last year. The 5 other photos are from this year!

I want to try maybe a more elegant style but idk really what suits me! How can I improve my style, any suggestions? :) 🤍 I’m hopefully starting uni soon, so I wanna try to improve my style :)

What makeup tips and styles would you suggest? I’ve been wanting to try new styles but I’m so unsure as to what makeup what flatter me.

I’ve tried winged eyeliner before and I thought it suited me but I would love some recommendations and ideas! :)

I took this photo like 2 hours ago I think.

I feel like useless person honestly.

My dad called me a piece of shit today and my mum called me a burden. I got grade U in all of my A-Level subjects and my mum keeps talking about how she “knew it” and that she wasted money on my tuition.

Apparently my mum won’t let me go to uni unless I “prove to her” that I can. I got an unconditional offer from a university I applied to. During most of my school years, I was in a completely unstable environment. My mum would call me baby and stuff but then call me useless and call me names and talk about my appearance. My dad sexually abused me when I was 12, and this year, he threw a table at me. And he shouts at me a lot. I was physically abused, emotionally abused and threatened at home. It’s so exhausting. Sigh.

I have hopes and dreams for myself. I want to travel, feel at peace and live my dreams. I would love to have a cute home and go out with people

My mum shouted at me today because she kept accusing me of “damaging her pan” when I clearly didn’t. She wants me to be a “high achiever”

My parents suddenly talked about “believing in me” or whatever 🙄

I don’t honestly trust my family at all and I am going to go to a women’s shelter tomorrow.

I feel like I just am not that beautiful. I wish I was prettier and I really wish I was more elegant. But I feel like a waste of energy that is just too lazy :/

Sorry if this makes me sound annoying or smth 😭☹️ I feel like a burden quite often tbh

I can hardly sleep rn because it’s so warm today honestly. 😭

I got my A-level results today. I got grade U in all three subjects. I know I am a failure. I don’t even have a job or driving license. My dad shouts at me for it.

I opened my results in the car. I didn’t want to tell my results after finding out I completely failed. My mum took the paper and decided to say that “she knew this would happen” and that I “wasn’t delivering the results”

During year 13, at home, it was genuinely difficult. At home, almost every week, I would hear shouting from downstairs. It distressed me so much. Even one time, a few months ago, my dad pushed a table straight at me. It was genuinely terrifying. For months, I was called useless, worthless and garbage by my mum.

I have been stuck in a place that does not feel homely or safe. My dad sexually abused me when I was 12 years old and I did not realise it was sexual abuse until a few months ago. I have been threatened at home. I remember a few months ago, my mum kicked me while I was blow drying my hair. I have been physically abused and emotionally abused. It’s horrible. And my mum always blames me for her actions.

A month ago, I ran away from home but came back the same day I had left. I feel so horrible. I still remember the night before, I heard shouting downstairs that was so loud it honestly was scary.

I feel like such a waste of energy and time. I don’t even know much about navigating my life at all. I thought I’d do more with life but honestly, I feel so incredibly lost. I hate my racist, misogynistic, abusive parents.

My mum keeps telling me that I need to “be closer with my family” which infuriates me honestly.

I should know more about life at 18, but honestly I’m just lost. I feel insanely lonely too.

The first two photos are of my current hair length! The other photos are of my hair when it was long and I miss my long hair SO MUCH😭☹️

Any tips to grow hair faster? In terms of haircare and food/diet! :)

Life isn’t the best at the moment. My mum started shouting at me for not making her a cup of tea. And she said that i probably failed my a level exams. I grew up in a completely unstable household, where i would hear shouting for hours, and my dad has also thrown tables at me and he sexually abused me.

It took me a while to understand that what I went through was sexual abuse. It took me a while to open up to my mum and sister about it. But my mum just thinks it’s a “misunderstanding” and that it’s “not sexual abuse” despite knowing that I was deeply hurt and affected by all the shit at home.

My mum has shouted at me, threatened me, and has also hit me before multiple times. She’s commented on my appearance so many times and it makes me tired and exhausted. She comments on my pimples, my hair, my body and it just sucks :/

And I’m going to try to escape home tomorrow. Life is pretty awful at the moment I have honestly felt so lonely and I feel really behind in life. My dad shouts at me for not having a driving licence and called me a piece of shit.

I’ve blocked both parents on my phone and have stopped sharing my location with them. I ran away a month ago at the start of July but came home the same day that I left. I still feel like a bit of a failure honestly. My horrible parents are abusive, misogynistic, racist assholes.

I’ve been trying to help myself and feel better by walking, eating healthier, listening to music but honestly I still feel so drained being at home. And feeling so isolated and lonely. I’ve been struggling to sleep well lately.

The weird thing is my mum calls me sweetheart and baby and it makes me feel so weird because she also just shouts at me for everything. For forgetting to do one thing, for not doing something “on time”.

I’ve been dreaming day and night of independence and freedom. I want to walk around with the sunlight, I want to live in a home that feels safe and comfortable. I want positivity, strength and peace and to embody it. That’s what I want.

To travel, to dance, to smile, to sing.

The first photo is my current hair length and the next 3 photos are of when my hair was longer!

How can I grow hair faster? I currently am trying to eat enough protein and I oil my hair sometimes before I wash it :)

Feeling sad and a bit hopeless lately. I’ve been exercising and eating healthier but still I feel kinda empty, stuck and not even pretty :(

Last month, I ran away from home. I came home the same day. I’ve been feeling so stuck ever since. I remember that night I felt so scared. My dad had been shouting so loudly. Later in the week my mum told me that she doesn’t even recognise me anymore.

At home, violence has happened to for years which would then be followed by either absolute silence or some sort of guilt trip. I’ve had tables thrown on me and plates falling on me when I was little.

I was sexually abused as a child by my dad. I opened up about it but my mum doesn’t believe I was sexually abused :/ I’ve also been physically and emotionally abused. I hate my abusive, misogynistic and racist parents.

I’m so stuck. I am hopefully going to start university next month and get a job. I dream of independence and freedom away from these horrible people. My mum continues to act as if she loves me by calling me baby and stuff but it just makes me feel sick to my stomach.

Breakfast I made on Wednesday. It was really yummy

My family honestly has been annoying me so much lately and I am fucking exhausted. I’ve been through physical abuse, emotional abuse and sexual abuse at home and threats. My mum doesn’t believe that my dad sexually abused me. What an asshole. My parents also have been misogynistic and racist

My mum always tells me to do EVERYTHING. She sometimes tells me to make her lunch, tea, to put out all the clothes, to make dinner. And it just pisses me off how she acts as if I do nothing. It’s SO ANNOYING.

Last month, I ran away from home but came back the same day :/ I’ve blocked both my parents and have stopped sharing my location with them so yeah. I want to run away again.

I’m 18 and just trying to take control over my life. I’m going to get a job soon and hopefully go to university next month but all this shit is stressing me out so much.

Am I too much? Am I enough? I’m not even sure :/

The first two pictures are with slightly thinner eyebrows and the last two pictures are when I had thicker eyebrows!

I sugar waxed my eyebrows a few weeks ago and and they are growing back and I was just wondering which style suits me more :)

I’ve been improving my skincare routine and eat healthier but I was wondering if there was anything else I could do :)