I (38M) get over cheating from partner (35F)?
My girlfriend (35F) and I (38M) dated for about a year and then split for a few months and got back together last fall. We took it very serious when we got back together and quickly started talking about future plans together like living together, getting married, finances, etc. This has been going on for 6 months. One evening I go to her place after work and we have a nice serious talk again about future plans and marriage. She tells me she loves me and signals with her finger that I should put a ring on it. She then leaves to go to a work event and leaves her Apple Watch behind. I have never trusted her and I monitored her watch while she was gone to the event. After about 3 hours, I see she initiated flirty texts with a mutual friend of ours who was at the event. The back and forth exchange was flirty and sexual. I then see the messages disappear off the watch, because she deleted them right as she walked in the door to see me. I confronted her and we had the fight. I tried to dump her, but she begged me to give her a chance and let her change her behavior. It’s been 2 months and she’s said/done all the right things but I still can’t get over it. I feel like I never will, and like I know marriage is forever off the table. We have a cruise vacation planned in a few weeks, and I just want to get through that and then evaluate and make the final decision. Whole situation sucks. Sometimes I wish I had pulled the plug that night, but I am also glad I’ve given it time to settle and put forth effort to see it through. Idk.