Fucking cheater
So I’ve been overly understanding that my bf doesn’t want to have sex lately cuz he’s stressed and also doing monjaro + has a ton of gas/bad digestion. It’s been months. We live together and there are cameras in every path that I have access to .. he works from home and so do I + I have his location so pretty much know what he’s doing 24/7. He never really does errands or goes to the gym.
Then tonight he actually is a being sexual and said “eat this” when he was passing I was sitting down. Tasted energetically like another persons energy - not his or mine - I still taste it on me it’s gross and can’t shake the fact there’s something there - I’ve sucked his dick so many times and nothing like that has felt like this -every time this happened in the past I was right that it bc the guy was with someone else.
Now he’s worried and being all nice and watching over me bc I told him what I felt. We are supposed to get engaged before EOY and now I don’t even know what to do .. I’m 37 and he’s 44 but has had a background in the past before me strippers etc
Anyone else felt this before and I can’t figure out when he might have done it other than maybe when he was about 40 min away for a work thing earlier this week … idk how to even begin to deal with this .. it’s a feeling not just in my mind and I wish I could rationalize or away …😭