u/MechanicalCantaloupe

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Yay or nay?

I'm 15 and I'm pretty much always feeling anxious/on edge. Always self conscious, overthinking every slight social interaction, often restless due to this and convincing myself I'm a worthless shitbag. I'm just so sick of this and I haven't gotten any official diagnoses but I'd like, it's just that I'm too nervous to tell my parents the way I've been feeling. Any responses are appreciated, thank you.

I'm 15 and for the last few years I've constantly had a never ending sense that all of my friends/peers hate me. Like after every social interaction, even just comments, I immediately begin overthinking everything and telling myself that I've fucked it up. Normally it's just me freaking out in my head but today I tried to make a joke about something but I realized as I was wording it that it wouldn't land but I couldn't just stop mid sentence so realizing that made my wording even worse and eventually I rambled out something that made almost no sense. This kind of thing happens often but today when it did, I instinctively just began squeezing the paper in my hand until it was crumpled as hell. I could barely even control it.

From what I've researched this sounds like social anxiety but if it IS social anxiety, it's very inconsistent for me; if I'm with my friends or in a space where I'm comfortable with the people, I can talk and talk loudly and not feel overly self conscious but any other time I feel like everyone's looking at me and everyone wants me gone (including the people I felt comfortable around).

All this nonstop is really just exhausting for me and I'm posting this in the hopes of hearing a different person's opinion on all of this.

I'm 15 and for the last few years I've constantly had a never ending sense that all of my friends/peers hate me. Like after every social interaction, even just comments, I immediately begin overthinking everything and telling myself that I've fucked it up. Normally it's just me freaking out in my head but today I tried to make a joke about something but I realized as I was wording it that it wouldn't land but I couldn't just stop mid sentence so realizing that made my wording even worse and eventually I rambled out something that made almost no sense. This kind of thing happens often but today when it did, I instinctively just began squeezing the paper in my hand until it was crumpled as hell. I could barely even control it.

From what I've researched this sounds like social anxiety but if it IS social anxiety, it's very inconsistent for me; if I'm with my friends or in a space where I'm comfortable with the people, I can talk and talk loudly and not feel overly self conscious but any other time I feel like everyone's looking at me and everyone wants me gone (including the people I felt comfortable around).

All this nonstop is really just exhausting for me and I'm posting this in the hopes of hearing a different person's opinion on all of this.