I've done Jiu Jitsu before, several years ago, for the better part of a year. I moved to a new country a couple years ago and have been thinking about starting up with that now that I'm settled in here. What should I expect? Any advice on restarting after a long break?
I struggle to trust anyone, including therapists.
When therapists ask me where something comes from (where some behavior, fear, anxiety, etc. originated in childhood), I never have an answer. I literally don't know.
I struggle to come up with examples in therapy. If I describe a way I've been feeling, or a situation that happened, the therapist often wants more context through examples. I can almost never think of one, during or after the session. Sometimes when pressed I would try to come up with something, but I would start feeling that it wasn't genuine. Like as if I was making something up in order to keep the session moving, but what I was saying wasn't true for myself.
The above are some of the reasons I struggled to engage in therapy. I've had a couple other therapists over the past several years, with similar struggles. Are there other people that struggle in similar ways? Is there a modality of therapy that I can explore that might be better for me? Any strategies I can try to get more out of therapy or engage more genuinely? What should I try?
I struggle with anxiety, depression, trust, sexual/ relationship fears, some family drama, want to work on boundaries, etc.
I'm in my mid 20s now
I will make ~$36k this year before taxes, estimating ~$40k next year. I live in South America right now so lower cost of living than in most of the US, but would like to have the freedom to spend more in retirement, essentially giving me freedom to move elsewhere if I choose to.
Budget:
Rent - $450/month
Food/other fun money - $250/month
I put aside 1/3 of gross income for US taxes, and split the leftover money between investments and savings accounts.
Assets:
Roth solo 401k - $5k
Roth IRA - $8k
Brokerage - $37k
Emergency fund (HYSA) - $6k
Travel fund - $6k
No debt, no credit cards, no car, etc. It would be cool to be FI maybe in my 40s. I know my actual fire number is quite low considering my current expenses but I have a sort of arbitrary goal of getting to 1-1.5mil in order to retire with a tiny bit more flexibility.
Aside from when it's used in a self harm or eating disorder type way (that's not my case), is there anything harmful in the long term if I don't get a chance to eat for a few hours after I get hungry, or end up skipping a meal because I just got busy and didn't have time to eat?
On a daily basis at this point, I think about how I know I need to go outside, reach out to my friends, etc. for my mental health, but I don't feel like it. I love my work but I am constantly trying to save as much money as possible because I want to retire as early as I can. I want to travel and go on adventures often, but at the same time I don't feel like going anywhere or being away from the comforts of my home. I'm constantly lonely, I enjoy socializing but am insecure and worry that I'm not a good enough friend to my friends.
I feel like I have the perfect life in the sense that I have a dream job, don't have to work too much, have friends living nearby, get to save money, etc. but I feel that I'll never be happy. Is it this way for other people? I probably need to be in therapy, but I recently quit. I couldn't tell if the therapist wasn't a good fit or it was simply a self sabotage thing, but I felt I couldn't trust the therapist.
I know I'm rambling! But I'm really struggling and just looking for other people's experiences. Maybe this is just how life/the world is?
I keep coming back to this idea. I'm in my mid 20s, not interested in sex, not interested in dating, but touch starved. Is this something that exists? Like, FWB but the benefits are cuddles and nothing more?
I thru hiked the Appalachian Trail a few years ago. It was the most fun, challenging, and meaningful adventure of my life. I did it when I was in my early 20s. The entire elevation gain is equal to summiting Everest from sea level 15 times (or something like that). Ask me anything!
And for those of who who have at least $1million, how long did it take you to get there?