u/Medium_Gold2016

Hi all,

I've been an EMT for 2 years, but mainly only doing IFT work. I recently took a side step to emergency medicine in a hospital as an ED tech. I've only had a few contacts with CPR in the field, due to IFT being considerably lower acuity patients, and my EMT training was very solid with CPR on the ground. I'm about 5'4", and when I try to do CPR on the hospitals beds, even with the step ladder, I realize I'm not hinging correctly the way I do when I do CPR on the floor. (On the floor I can kind of engage my thighs a little more to get more power). Does anyone have any tips for doing CPR on a higher surface or how to do CPR effectively if you're shorter?

Thanks in advance

Hi Dad,

I've had an ongoing issue thats been stretched out almost 2 years now. I messed up pretty bad and I'm still trying to fix it. This is my first time kind of "learning the hard way" as you say. I'm just scared I'll always be a bad person for this. It was a mistake, and I can give it every excuse in the book on why it happened, but its still my fault. I've been working real hard to change and be a better person daily. I know one mistake doesn't define you, but if i heard it coming from you, I might be inclined to believe it more. I've been beating myself up about it for almost 2 years now, and I'm not sure how to move on.

Thanks dad ❤️

Hi guys

I was debating making a tifu for what led to me needing this meeting in the first place, but now i royally fucked up on top of that so you'll get the whole kit and kaboodle here!

Almost 2 years ago, I was younger, very dumb, and extremely tired from working myself to the bone directly out of college. I had piled on responsibility after responsibility to become an integral part of my job, training the new hires, picking up shifts, creating projects and working with leadership on how to make the company better. I was begining to feel really proud of myself. I work in healthcare, and as is common with a lot of healthcare jobs, i got held over about 3 hours after my shift was supposed to end. Extremely tired, it was about 1 am, and I had work the same day at 7 am. I went to drive home and due to the darkess, no one on the road, my loud music, and my own terrible judgement (please no more criticism, I have literally stressed over this being solely my fault enough for multiple lifetimes), I totally didnt notice the spedometer and got pulled over for speeding. The cop paced me at 105 mph. (Again i dont need more criticism, i know i fucked up and i am paying royally for such a decision, and i take all responsibility) It took 2 years for the court system to work it out. I have had no previous tickets, and during the time waiting for my court date, I had handled my issue with speeding and have since been incredibly diligent to not end up in the same place. Now my state just started a crackdown on 100+ mph speeding tickets. I got the whole book thrown at me. 2 points and a possible license suspension for 30 days, but as long as i take a 8 hr driving corrections course, I am not at risk for losing my license. However the 2 points on my license cost me my job with a company where I drive their company cars. I understand, my fault, still a gut punch. I had worked so hard to earn the favor of the bosses there for when I apply to grad school and need letters of recommendation.

Anyway I quickly hopped on and scheduled the class for today. I was anxious every day leading up to this class. I didnt go a day without thinking "oh shit i have to do this class, did they send the class booklet yet? Am i going to be responsible enough to get on zoom and take the class?"

This is my second tifu

Last night i was so nervous i couldn't sleep. I got to a point in the night where i knew if i went to bed i WOULD NOT wake up in the morning. I have been having really bad insomnia, which has caused me to miss many things with multiple different alarms set and preventatives every time i do manage to sleep. I stayed up. I made coffee, i made breakfast, and I made it in time for my class. I checked in correctly, even made it through half the class. Then they decided to take a 10 minute break. My back was killing me, i went to sit on my couch and just closed my eyes. Bad idea. Woke up 20 minutes later, and they had kicked me from the class. There are no more classes i can take because theyre so booked out. Im going to lose my license. Im pretty sure of it.

I feel like such a bad person and a fuck up. I am so afraid I will be denied jobs and looked at terribly. I'm still young so my understanding of the big picture is still so hard when I feel trapped here. I fucked up so bad twice now and I just feel like a burden for the people who will have to drive me to work now, and everyone i will have to rely on. I was working so hard on becoming independent and making my family proud and I just keep fucking it up. I feel like such a loser and a terrible person.

Can anyone offer words of wisdom? I feel like the world is closing in on me over and over again.

TL;DR: I got a misdemeanor speeding ticket 2 years ago and I still cant manage to do anything right to help fix it. My second tifu happened when I fell alseep in my remedial driving class, and I will most likely lose my license for a month and I feel terrible as a person.