Burning out your support when bipolar
Hello all,
I'm on my third major episode and I really feel like I've spent all the good will I'm going to get. I can be stable for years, but when I melt down, I melt down hard. Like I'm having mood swings from 6 months to a year this past time. I'm doing better, but I still need support and I feel like I burnt everyone out. There were extenuating circumstances, like my brother getting married, but I really feel like everyone is just done with me being sick. My brother said he'd rather let me die than come visit me while I'm depressive and my mom told me to my face that no one cares about me or will ever care about me. My friends are great but they seem at their wits end because I'm just not better, so they're disengaging. I'm seeing my therapist once a week and taking all my medication, I'd just like to be able to talk to someone I'm not paying.
Has anyone else had this experience? What do you do when you're entire support system is just done with you being needy?