u/MentionOrganic2995

I talked to her on call just once and omg. I was so looking forward to talk to her again and even asked her but she postponed it to the next day and then I didn't want to pressure her so I was waiting for her her to initiate the call but she never did. It's been a few days. I didn't ask again because I don't think she's interested in me. When I asked about the call she mentioned few messages later that she kind of likes a girl she matched with on hinge. She is too much my type yrrr. Now I know to not pursue something in which the other person isn't mutually interested but my problem is that I'm not able to get her out of my head. Like every person I'm talking to, I'm automatically comparing to her and thinking that I would have more feelings for her. I have deleted all chats. And dare not look at her dp again because I don't want to go down the rabbit hole. But wtf. Sometimes I think should I just tell her clearly I like her but again the signs are against me and I don't wanna guilt her up for having to say no to me or I don't want to make the situation uncomfortable (I also don't wanna face rejection). Pls someone tell me that this will end. Because why the fucking I'm losing my opportunities with new people over someone I'm not even dating and who doesn't give a f about me. The biggest lesbian trauma is liking someone who is into women and still doesn't like you back. And my hormones are hitting and I don't wanna be single anymore. And the wlw mv's don't help. This sucks man. Pls someone open a matrimony app. I'm ready.

Bhagwan pls aisa kuch dila do🙏

I'm just feeling really pissed whenever I think I have to live a life of a lie. I can't even tell my friends whom I'm fucking dating (if i do). And they are just getting married and posting reels on Instagram and getting all these supportive comments. I wonder if I'd get that if i did the same. I'm lowkey feeling suffocated. And I have decided to try to do something exciting with my life. I feel so lame right now. I was thinking of buying an instrument but those are big and it becomes a problem to carry them. But I guess atleast expressing my feelings (pain) through an instrument would make me feel better. There's nothing really wrong in my life but I feel like a shadow. And my stupid mind keeps on craving a girlfriend every now and then. I wonder how people keep themselves happy. I know I have to be happy alone first, and that's what I'm trying to do. Pls suggest me what to do (any hobby or something)?? Also suggest me where can I go for a solo trip for upto a week so I can forget this fucking world exists.

Neither I can get a mutually loving girlfriend nor am I able to just completely give up on love. I'm stuck in a vicious cycle of women playing with my heart and I'm tired of it. Pata nahi apna time kab ayega. As soon as I start liking someone, she runs away as if I have Covid. I guess my behaviour somehow changes which becomes repulsive. Idk.

Edit: Added my insta to increase my chances of finding someone I vibe with. Desperate times require desperate measures. (I will ignore fake id's and guys😋).

Thankyou in advance.

I mean happily single. What all hobbies you pursue, how do you spend your day. How do you make sure life is worth living?

Like on call or something. I wanna flirt and shii.

I'm in 2 nd yr pg now. My problem is that I never have fit in and still feel like an outsider even after being here for 1 yr. Most batchmates live in hostel and I live outside alone in 1 bhk on rent so that also doesn't help. Recently interns graduation was there and expect one of my batchmate, no one else asked me if I'm coming or not (none of my seniors or juniors or other batchmate). I was close friends with one batchmate who is posted in another city now for her peripherals and one senior resident ma'am whose senior residency ended so she went back to her state. I feel like an outlier and like no one gives a fuck about me. Also doesn't help that I have social anxiety and negative thoughts about myself. Like I think that if I go anywhere I will have no one to talk to and that people will know I'm friendless and alone and for some reason I really want to hide it from other people. I don't want anyone's pity or anyone to think that I'm weird. It's just sad that I'm still struggling with these mostly teenager problems at 28. My social skills are pathetic. Idk man . Just now my drp of 3 months ended and I'll be going back to my regular department opd from tomorrow onwards and probably gonna feel alone again. When I came here new, it made sense but even after 1 yr i feel like I have no friends I can feel comfortable with except one or two and I feel no one is really interested in me.