I have read, seen and listened to many people talking about being able to awaken your third eye or your pineal gland and then being able to see patterns, colors and all kind of mysthical sights with their eyes closed.....all this being said, I can only see black, sometimes a little bit of blue/purple but I cannot create any actual image, anyone has any real experience with this?
Hi to all and sorry for the long post.
My name is Fernando and I live in Playa del Carmen, I spent 35 years of my life not believing in anything, no god, no religion, nothing, yet stress lead me into sound healing and into trying psylocibin and ayahuasca because I wanted to know if there was any other way of living, abetter one.
I experienced some sort of spiritual awakening that lead to me to remember this ancient memories like prehispanic dance (which I didn't knew I could do until it just happened), running temazcal ceremonies (sweat lodges) but it also gave me somo sort of direct communication with my instruments trough looking at a "I am" mural while doing sound healing.
I personally do not like the term "healing" because I am not trying to heal anyone; I am just being called and guided to do this sound baths, where people experience all kind of experiences, people have laughed, cried, spoke with transcended relatives, seen their power animals, all kind of sacred geometry and colors....I even had two really powerful experiences, someone told me that experienced the closest he has ever been to a DMT experience without any medicine and another one felt as if the purple flame qas trying to get in her, this are their words not mine.
It feels like the craziest science fiction story but I am actually living it and the craziest part is that when you accept that forgiveness is the path towards unconditional love and you let your ego die towards this everything shifts.
I even had the chance to do a sound bath for people that follow Gary Reynard from "A Course of Miracles" and had the chance to talk face to face with him, where I understoof that quantum leaps are, by definition, time traveling, as per we are the ones that put all the mirrors and masters in our story for us to find them and then become the better version of ourselves, which is the christic goal.
The part I really do not understand is why? Why was I given this, what am I suppossed to do with it?
I am currently in a close-to-be-homeless position because I did so many voluntary donation sessions and when I tried charging for them people didn't wanted to pay for them even though I had people coming since my first session which was almost a year and a half ago.
And I have met all this incredible "hippie" people which have been in this path for 5, 10, 15, 20, 25 years, people that carry names going from every single charachter in the Bible, the Greek Mythology, the Norse one, the Mayan and the Aztec one, I even had some told me I was a resurrected version of Archangel Michael.
I even met people that can understand whales and dolphins...
I was a very grounded individual before because I like and follow proof before mysticism, but right now I am very confused.
Sorry for the long post I just needed to vent.