If you ever feel like you messed up…
Just remember you can try to seek help for your mental health and be prescribed a medication that you didn’t want because you wanted to try a medication from the same family of meds you had been taking, but the doctors know better, right? But it not only ends up making it worse by shutting neurotransmitters in your brain but also leads to your life be ruined in just 5 months and you’re fiancé leaving because all you could do is reference a memory of what you want and not say what you actually want(I wanted a hug and just kept saying I need you). This isn’t a reason to not seek help just be careful with the medication and who you keep in your company.
There’s probably more to the story than that but my head really hurts when I call back on those memories, they are also super fragmented. Apparently it’s referred to as a chemical lobotomy, which I don’t believe is an actual medical term but it’s pretty accurate at describing what happens with the bad side effects of the medication I was taking.