r/PsychosisRecovery

I unfollowed everyone i knew on instagram in my episode. I thought they wanted to harm me and stuff. I also did this on snapchat. Im much better now and grounded. I am going back to school in 3 months and iam worried they will think iam weird because i have basically no followers and a low snapscore. I have one friend i have a snapscore with and also on instagram i have like 2 people. I dont wanna follow my old contacts back bc theyll probably think im weird bc i unfollowed them and suddenly iam back with 0 following. During my episode that lasted 3-4 years i didnt had many friends besides the people i was in school with. They think im crazy bc i was pretty psychotic and manic in school. So my question is should i try to follow old people or delete it? And how will i make new friends without social media presence and low amount of friends and people i know? I have basically no social life…

This is a very good anti paranoia agent.

tried to make a post the other day, didnt save as draft, am making it again.

not gonna go into much detail but I am working full time, a physically demanding job, also doing training, playing music, going out, etc, all the while realising all my possible delusions, like they are still there, but they never go on a tangent, if you catch my drift.

I am pretty young, also on wellbutrin and zoloft, and finally finding myself again after hospitalisation and a bunch of shitty meds (risperdal-,latuda) and shitty community centres "especially made for early intervention "

also have to mention, have taken 0.5mg mushrooms, had a good trip, am smoking weed daily, and no problems, but really its the antipsychotic that I wanna focus on as, when the meds were shitty, I knew it and blamed the meds, I could feel it. With this one its different.

Something about the partial (70% IA) agonism of only the d3 receptor, associated with mood and some more stuff, and all paranoia is gone.

Also helps functionality when 5ht2a and d2 are naturally left alone, and I wont even speak for anti adrenergic and weird stuff like that. although antihistamine (zyprexa) is good for emergency, always carry it never had to use this.

so zyeah there are many ways around this ilness, or I just got lucky, zi duno, but I thought I was a lost cause for sure.

It was one year of death almost.

Even had a close attempt.

Never give up guys.

Life is worth it.