r/PsychosisRecovery

I want to start this off by saying; taking your medication on time and consistently is key to stability at first. However, at least for me and for many others, life becomes more dull while on antipsychotics like abilify, etc.
(Comment your medication name and overall experience, I want to know and it can help others on their journey)
Secondly,

I used to smoke, take shrooms, abuse antidepressants and relaxants, and drink. This combination of mind altering, psychoactive, hallucinogenic substances, caused me to start having drug induced psychosis, to a pretty extreme level. I was diagnosed with bipolar with psychotic features, and schizophrenia. I’m not sure if they just classified drug induced psychosis as a diagnosis, or if I’m actually schizophrenic..

All I can say is, I have gotten a lot better, I’ve been medicated on abilify for 1 year and some change. The voices I heard are completely under control, they feel like my own thoughts, and I’m almost completely back to normal, and I realize they are not some external voice, instead just my own thoughts feeling like they are coming from exterior sounds instead of playing in my head like a normal thought would.

I started to feel a lot more stable after taking my first few months of abilify injections, but recently I asked my doctor to halve the dose. Then I took a trip to Australia, and had to make a 30 day supply of 9mg tablets last 90 days, so I kind of made a unsupervised decision to take my medication every 3 days to make it last (not recommended without speaking with a doctor first)

Thankfully it all worked out and now,I actually am on 3mg daily which is pretty much the same thing, even lower than my halved dosage.

I really wanted to join the military, so if my symptoms go away I think I’ll try to talk to the doctor to have them remove my diagnosis if that’s even possible because then it means I was just under drug induced psychosis and it’s not a mental health issue.

Thanks for reading :) 🖤🙏

Hey guys, I recently turned twenty-seven and have been feeling emotional…two years ago almost exactly, I’ve been hospitalized for my first manic/psychotic episode that was triggered by an anti-depressant and multiple life stressors. Since then I’ve been medicated, and my psychiatrist told me it was safe to taper, given that the risk for mania is a bit lower (he thinks).

I haven’t really found that medication has helped with my depression; my psychiatrist also doesn’t think that my depression is so much biological as it is social and psychological, as in I have some very negative thinking patterns that I need to change. I still worry that my emotions will get even more intense though and possibly more depressed too, but also I already feel dull…

is it foolish of me to want to get off my meds? I mean, psychosis was the most terrifying experience of my life, but again, there were so many factors at play…shock of coming home after long solo trip, looking for work, processing past trauma, antidepressant, poor sleep, substances (usually never drink/smoke) plus I didn’t have the education back then of bipolar to fully realize what was going on, I feel like I’m quite self-aware and would be better at spotting the signs now.

That was the only time I had a manic episode, if it was more reoccurring and frequently oscillating, I would probably think it’s better to stay on the meds. What are your thoughts? What should I expect coming off meds, any change? I am a bit worried if this is the right time given that I’m especially sensitive, but also craving change and fresh start so bad…I've been feeling like the last two years I've been living in pause

Mania to full blown psychosis with severe dp/dr, some hallucinations, feeling like body and brain electrocuted, insomnia, heaviness in body, numbness throughout body, anhedonia, severe cognitive issues, severe memory issues, severe SI and more. I'm barely hanging on. Can I recover? Please? Give me hope. months long now. intelligent, kind, bubbly, creative personality obliterated. cannot handle psych meds