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I (F 16, 62 KG, 167 cm, medication is sertrsline 50 mg once a day 6 mg melatonin) suspect I might have OCD. I already have diagnosed autism and ADHD, and I also struggle with anorexia, anxiety and tics, but I’m scared to bring OCD up to my psychiatrist because I’m worried they’ll think I’m faking or convincing myself I have it.

A lot of the things I experience feel compulsive in a way I can’t really explain. For example with eating/weight stuff, I feel like I need to have control, and there are certain things I feel like I have to do or avoid doing even if I know it doesn’t logically make sense.

I also repeat/check things constantly. I run a lot, and if I make a running plan or calculate calories, pace, distance etc, I have to look at the numbers over and over again. Sometimes I rewrite things or recalculate them multiple times even though I already know the answer. I also repeatedly tell people my plans/thoughts because it feels like I need to.

I’ve also had health anxiety where I became really convinced something was physically wrong with me and kept panicking about it even though tests were normal. Then eventually it kind of disappeared again.

Another thing is obsessing over memories/events and doubting whether things actually happened the way I remember them. There are situations from school/friends that I still think about because I have really vivid mental images of them, but I honestly can’t tell anymore whether my brain exaggerated parts of them or not.

The thing confusing me is that autism can also cause repetitive behavior and rigidity, so now I can’t tell what’s autism and what could maybe be OCD. I also keep obsessing over the possibility that I’m subconsciously copying symptoms or convincing myself I have OCD when I actually don’t.

Does this sound relatable to anyone with OCD/autism or both?

Hey, I have anorexia. I am not underweight!! I have a holiday coming up and I want to lose weight in a HEALTHY way which for me means I have to eat atleast four times a day with snacks. I am not really a meal person, I like to snack alone. I have issues with eating infront of people. Like not really friends but with family members and my roommates. I live in a carehome due to my personal life and they monitor what I eat which makes me feel bad about myself if I eat normally. Due to that fact I can't eat infront of them much other than vegetables. I would like to eat more to lose some fat, but I can't really do that if I am not eating enough. This is a big step for me and I know it is not ideal and not a full recovery. I have a eating disorder unit meeting in few weeks. And until that I consider that this is better than not eating at all or eating very little. I don't have money to buy my own foods, I would if I had. Wishing everyone well and tips are apprichiated..