
I don’t know if I’m happy or I’m sad?
I started MJ 3 months ago and am about to start on my 4th pen. I decided to stay on 7.5 for another few months since I was getting side effects when I upped the dosage and don’t know if I have made the right decision or not.
Let’s start with the happy! I’m getting back into exercise and building a healthier relationship with food which I am hoping are habits I will continue with long after I come of MJ. I am 40lbs down so far which is great seeing the scale numbers moving down!
Now for the sad part, without comparing photos I feel like there has been no change to look at, I don’t feel that I’m more energetic or healthier. I look in the mirror and see the same person from 3 months ago who would cry about leaving the house just incase someone I knew saw what I’d let myself become.
I hate it because I know how far I’ve come, I’m exercising 3/4 times a week, walking and hiking whereas I was doing none of this before, I’m not snacking or seeking food for comfort but yet I still feel like I’m not doing enough 🥺