u/Minimum_Activity_850

so basically, this all started in February when this happened. So i'm in 7th grade and just turned 13, so my friends were celebrating my birthday at the table we sat at together always. (this happened in February) there are like 8/10 people normally sitting there, but today there were 12. despite it being a few days after my birthday, that particular day i was having a bad day. a lot of things went wrong. this specifically was the friday RIGHT before Valentines, february 13. i was pissed off for numerous reasons that day.

1. I hit my head while walking to homeroom.

2. I was the only boy in class not to get a Valentine card or candy gram or anything. now, this wasn't really that bad at first, but then my friend told me to "get over it, it's probably cause you're short." like, WTF??! that felt kinda shitty, but i brushed it off.

3., i get a bad grade on a pop quiz in history class.

and as i went to lunch, the guys thought it was funny to not let me sit down. they kept doing this for minutes until i yelled at them, to their response they told me to chill and called me oversensitive, which i didn't care about because they didn't know the context. so they celebrated me, and all was good. then i went down to the field to play football with them. my other friend started making fun of me about the yelling thing. i told him to stop, but he kept going. eventually, i called him a fatass (he's kinda chubby). and that sure got him to stop, but it really pissed him off. after this, everyone got pissed off at me and forced me to leave the field. for the rest of february, i got into a lot of arguments with people in the group, (most of which were not caused by me).

but THEN, the friend who is the "leader" of the group tells me if i "cause another argument, we're kicking you out. forever." mind you i've been with them for over a year now. then, i call my other friend who's redheaded "Ginger". Before you get mad, that's his nickname that everyone calls him at school and he is comfortable with. then, 3 of my friends from the group corner me and call me racist. they all yell at me, and that following saturday, the leader friend texts me and tells me "we are done. sorry." i get pissed, and he gets even more pissed.

that next monday, march 2. that was the day everything changed for me. the leader friend had made a fake screenshot from his Pov where a contact with my initials and name texted him the n-word (hard r). he spread this across school, alongside several other of my "friends" from the group, and that day was hell. a couple of the African-American kids at my school jumped my ass in the locker room. i got called names, all sorts of stuff, and was painted a racist schoolwide. he eventually stopped and apologized by making this bullshit excuse "i didn't know who sent me that, but it wasn't [me]". to think that people are that dense that they're just gonna believe that was crazy to me. but people believed him. and some people still bullied me for it. my friend who had just joined the school this year told me that he had my back, and defended me. after this whole thing quieted down, i was happy. another guy i haven't mentioned yet from the group also supported me through this whole thing.

unfortunately, i went to the school when this whole thing started, and got them in trouble, but that just made it worse. they continued to bully me until i felt suicidal. really suicidal. they tracked down all my accounts on social media and started to cyberbully me as well. i did block all of them, so at least that was good. i told my friend about it, and he comforted it. but right as i started to feel happy, thinking that the group was just gonna be the 3 of us now, my friend who was new this year left. left to join a new friend group in early April. and hasn't come back to see me once. we still talk over text, but that's it.

oh also, i didn't mention my best friend of near 2 years abandoned me in favor of that group as well, when i was the one who introduced him to them first. i can't believe he did it, and he also still didn't come back.

so, i thought i could chill with my one friend. but, he said he couldn't take being "lonely" anymore and left for that group as well, in late April. now, i spend my days at school alone and miserable. i try to make art to get my mind off of it, but i just can't. i just can't.

also, to be quick, my home life isn't great, so that doesn't help either. on weekends, i don't even get out of bed anymore. i pretty much spend my free time on reddit and tiktok at this point. i went from having 9-10 friends to having 0 in around 2.5 months. thanks for listening to my yap. no one even wants to talk to me or look at me anymore. i also recently left all my clubs and quit baseball cuz kids from the group were on my team. but one last thing, i remember texting one of those guys last December, and i remember him saying "i'll never switch up on you, bro, you're goated". and tbh, i have really acted like an dick sometimes. like, a huge dick. but i don't think i deserved this.