I need to restore my faith
Salam alayikum
I’m a young sister who has always tried my best to practice Islam and stay away from haram. Lately, though, something has been weighing heavily on my heart.
Because of years of bullying, I started wearing makeup. I know that many scholars consider it sinful in certain situations, and I understand the reasoning behind that. At first, I felt a lot of guilt about it.
However, I was told that all the good deeds I do—my salah, reading the Qur’an, making du’a, my daily dhikr and ziyarah—are pointless because I’m going to burn in Hell anyway for wearing makeup. Hearing that devastated me.
Instead of bringing me closer to Allah, those words pushed me away. I gradually stopped making du’a, stopped reading the Qur’an, and lost much of the hope I used to have. Alhamdulillah, I still pray my five daily prayers, but inside I feel broken.
I’ve even found myself having thoughts that scare me, such as: “If Allah is the Most Merciful and the Most Forgiving, why would He send me to Hell alongside truly evil people simply because I wear makeup?”
I don’t want to think this way. I want my relationship with Allah back, but I’m struggling, confused, and hurt.
Please, if anyone can offer sincere advice based on the Qur’an and authentic Sunnah, I would really appreciate it.
Jazakum Allahu khayran.