Hi! Need help confirming my type... basically, I think I know my enneagram, but I want to hear if others would come to the same conclusion as me without any influence/bias
I have to do stream of consciousness for this to eliminate bias, so sorry for the brain dump lol
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Where to start?
I guess at the beginning
I was born into a household with a 6 father and 8 mother and a 1 older brother. (At least those are my best guesses)
I always felt I had to be the family puppy so to speak. Everyone else was so intense, so I felt the need to be a ball of energy and fun to try to make my other family members happy.
I followed my older brother around everywhere, liked all the things he liked... I kinda thought of him as the parent and then there were the other two big people we united against
Remember when I said ball of energy? I was also bouncing off the walls when left to my own devices... climbing, jumping, throwing things and catching them (not trying to break stuff haha, most of the time at least)
Oh and of course video games, but I didnt always get to play, a lot of times I had to sit and watch my older brother play an entire story mode of a game... I always wanted to play too, but watching wasn't so bad... I never wanted to play on my own though
As I got older, I stopped being so attached to my brother (he really wanted separation eventually), and I started to make a lot of friends and get hobbies... rubik's cubing and skateboarding were the main ones... oh and just being out of the house hanging out with friends... I'd be running around outside with them, but I was the kid just climbing up into a tree for no reason
The rubik's cubing didnt last forever because I was tired of that being my whole personality, and nobody really liked it anyways... I leaned more into skateboarding, at least there was a community there and I had a close friend that did it too... I wasnt so bad but I wasnt so great
At this point in my life, I was really focused on being a good friend... either hanging out or being there to lend an ear... I always aspired to be a nice person (and I still do)
It's just that sometimes I can be a bit chaotic haha... people dont realize that if I said an offensive joke and it offended someone I will backpedal and apologize because Id rather not offend anyone, the point of a joke is to be funny, sometimes shocking can be more funny as long as the right audience hears it
I've always liked math, and analytical things, like the puzzle solving from before, I even worked as a developer... but I've also always loved foreign languages
In my current point in life, Ive settled down a bunch... I learned to stop trying to react to others and to focus on myself... I even greatly reduced the number of friends I have... since then I've been a lot better... I can focus on the right things in life without feeling the pull of others
I know that if I need to get friends again, I can go out and socialize and get some more
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Feel free to ask me any questions because I get that this was very unstructured