u/MonkeyJo

I have been doing ketamine therapy for 5+ years all the way back since Dr. Smith. Every session I rediscover old memories, conversations, and even people I used to see and speak with daily I haven’t even thought about in over a decade.

Most of it seems inconsequential. What worries me is just how much I forgot. All of these people I was so close with being reduced to footnotes in the recesses of my mind. It worries me and invokes a sense of guilt.

I came home from work to find my cat dead on the floor. I knew this day was coming given how old he was but still I was unprepared. He had been eating, drinking, and using his box normally so coming home to find him dead on the floor was so jarring.

He lived a long, comfortable life full of love. I’ve accepted it was just his time but I miss him so, so much. I love you Teddy.