u/Moonvie8

I’m using rotation: mona skill -> mavuika bust +skill -> mona bust + 4 normal attacks -> sucrose skill -> mavuika combo
It’s great and all, tried it on the dummy on miliastra wonderland and got great results
But when I use it on actual enimies, I have trouble with pyro application, by the time pyro is applies so I can do shark bite with mualani, I would have to wait for at least 5 to 7 secs, after my night sole points run out, what am I doing wrong???

I feel like all the ENFPs will understand how much I hate root routines and imprisonment in expectations, bc lots of us have it
First off this is more of a vent post and how to deal with it and I really don’t feel like hearing “just talk to your mom”

I’m an ENFP-T, great with academics, specially maths and sciences, and I feel like this is because I enjoy studying them and digging through them even further than what we took, and as a high schooler, I’ve scored pretty high for an avg student
My perants have hopes for me, which I love, I mean who wouldn’t
But it also bothers me, they want me to attend the medical field
Even since I was a kid, all they could talk about me is how ill become a doctor, and it’s because I have potential and stuff
Even few days, per say twice a week, she comes to my room and rants about how ill become a doctor and make my life easier, and how she will be very sad if I’m anything less

I’ll be honest, I *want* to be a doctor, not only bc I’m of the expectations and all, but bc I personally love biology and other sciences, but I’m scared I won’t be able to do it
I don’t want my freedom to be taken bc of that, I don’t want to be restricted, it’s my life, I want the decision to be my own without pressure, and I hate this.
If I grow up to become a doctor, my life *will* be easier I have lots of doctors in my family, and I dream to travel the world like they do
But every person can do what they can. And I refuse to let my moms dream take over my life and my freedom
I would be more than happy to be an architect or engineer if I failed to become a doctor, bc I’m good at drawing and maths, algebra and geometry
“I’m the “gifted child” that will do great things when I grow up” but sm times I don’t feel like so.
I feel different from society from another prespective other than that which my mom doesn’t look at
I’m writing this right after her weekly rant abt this, and I’m just tired, I feel like I wanna cry infront of her

I feel like I would have wanted the life she talks abt way more if she didn’t put it as pressure on me, bc as an ENFP, my ultimate goal is freedom, more than anything else

I’m not sure what the purpose of this post it, I just want to let it out, and I’m too chicken to tell any of my friends or family, and ain’t no way I’m telling my parents anything other than nodding every time, thank u for reading this far, means a lot to have sm one to listen to that tbh :)

Im not sure if I should ask this here but idk where else to :’)
I’m trying to find my wing type, and I’m stuck between either 7w6 or 4w3
Is there any way I could know for sure?

A lot of people tell me that I have a very low Si, and I really don’t know what that means, I just have a slight idea

I get that my intuition is high, and I feel like this affects me as well and how deattached I am from my surroundings, so if I really do have “low si” is there something I should do if it comes with a bigger disadvantage?

I’ll start first:
I have a pet rock named Robby (I’m not that young btw-) I’ve had him for years and I sm times talk to him
I can’t sleep without a plushy
When I have conversations with myself, I unconsciously say them out loud (I Alr talk with myself a lot)
My most used phrases are “yay” and “yippee”
I’m obsessed over dream core

I’ve considered myself as an ENFP bc of the amount of energy I carry, I’m so chaotic to some people, and childlike, as well as creativity and a very rich inner world, I relate to most stereotypes and stuff
I’m very social but require alone time, fitting the “introverted extrovert” which describes me in the best way
But sometimes, I regret how I act, I lock myself up I live in a completely different world, I start adoring alone spaces, and obsessed over liminal spaces, and dreamcore aesthetics, I wish to dissapear in a world far away, without any human interaction. I feel guilty for saying this because I truly love my friends
I also sometimes get numb with my feelings, most if the times, I’m very childlike and dumb-jokes kinda person, but between them are times where is sit, and start hosting not only everyone but my surroundings and feelings
This doenst sound like something an extrovert childlike person would say

So yeah I would love to know more abt myself and if you relate, also if you can ask me questions to know more abt the situation