u/Morrisonhotel82

I have access to Iplayer and I was curious to see what Britbox offered, to their credit they did offer a lot of dramas , some high end documentaries and game/panel shows, but in looking closer, I noticed very few programs highlight social issues or featuring the UK's diversity such as the black, LGBTq or disabled community. I saw hardly any regional programing for Scotland, Northern Ireland or Wales. Most of the content seems to be nature docs, travel or content about the royal, and not about everyday people in the UK. Barely any hard hitting, uncensored docs that you see on BBC and Channel 4. And zero docs on music or performances It doesn't represent the real UK ar all. Its sad that this is the only legal access to UK content, though Netflix fills some if the gap. You are better off accessing Iplayer, ITV and Channel 4 with a VPN, its cheaper and you get all the content..

So backstory, I am 42 and I live with my parents, I was diagnosed with ASD about a year ago and am a disability advocate, I struggle social and have serious sensory overload issues. I struggle financial and finding a job that don't payed enough for an apartment. There are times when we get along and things are calm, but whenever tension comes up, it gets ugly ( a lot of arguing and yelling due to my meltdowns) Anyway we had a water leak and it caused to be displaced ( staying in hotels, disrupted routine etc) I work late and the workers on the house disrupts my sleep, making it difficult to function. So they have this loud humidifier in the kitchen, it roars and it is killing my sensory overload. I was trying to turn it off but it was taking a long time to shut down and my dad was "the noise isn't a big deal, why are you so upset" and from there the arguing started. They left and when they came back, I finally had this breakdown where I begged them to understand, I begged them to have empathy and know that these issues are hard to control, its a medical condition. My brother took his life and I said you are killing me, you do not want to lose me, do you? They said nothing and sat in silence. I finally realize that they are being dismissive of my needs, they don't want to want to understand. I have to adapt, but they arent willing to adapt to me. I am tired of yelling, I am tried of breaking, I am tired of my life being disrupted on the account of others, yet when I need others to adapt to me, they won't budge. I cannot leave, I cant afford a place of my own, so all I can do is cut them off emotionally. If I need help or support, fine, but they will not get a relationship of me, I am tired of being hurt and unheard. Has anyone been through something simliar where they live with their parents but cannot engage with them? Do you experience dismissal of your needs in terms of Autism? I cant be alone here, I am trying to survive and have zero emotional supports offline outside of my parents, and that may be the crux of the issue,. I have allowed them to control and been way too emotionally dependent on my parents. I need to break free from them somehow..