Harper crossed the rainbow bridge on Monday

Harper crossed the rainbow bridge on Monday

TW: Blood

Our dog Harper crossed the rainbow bridge on Monday 8/17/2026. I've dealt with death of pets before but Harper's death hit me different than the others I have dealt with in my life time. We got Harper way back in May of 2017 and was born 3/7/2017. She was just a puppy when we got her and like all puppies she was vocal. She cried a lot and barked a lot when she was left alone. She was the same breed (Havanese) as the other two we had at the time. We also called her Harpie and my dad called her twisted sister. Harper loved being around us she was always on my dad's lap or she was around me if I was near her. What she loved more than anything else was being outside she always wanted to be outside. She would go out and just sit on the back porch for a long time or she would go outside to bark all the time at the other dogs in the development when they barked. She didn't have little dog syndrome but she thought she could punch above her weight.

She was also a nervous dog. She barked at every little noise she heard and when we trimmed her she shook constantly even after we had been doing it for years with her. Like the other dogs we had she got into things or made messes in the house but we still loved her so much. Harper also was something of a pot stirrer amongst our other dogs. Sometimes she would go out first then wait for one the other dogs to go out and get up in their grill when they went outside. She fought with the other dogs (not always her fault) with the other dogs we had. Still for all of that we loved her dearly. When we came home if she was inside she was one of the first ones at the door waiting for us to get in or be the first ones to try and get out.

A few years ago mom decided to bring a fourth dog into the house. Harper and the youngest dog sometimes went at it mostly due to food and with the newest dog being a much larger breed it often was a struggle getting them apart when they start fighting. Sometimes they just fought when they didn't stay in their lane (the other Havanese did this too with each other Harper fought with our two at times so this wasn't something that only happened when the youngest dog came into the picture). Sometime Monday one of dogs started to cry. Harper went over to see her along with our youngest dog and they started fighting. Mom called for me and when I went into the living room there blood all over the place and Harper was the floor seriously injured from the fight. Mom took her to the emergency vets and they said they was going to okay she had three puncture wounds and they would operate to close them. Mom had come home and was going to head back a little latter that night. When she was there they said they were going to keep her since her breathing was labored when she called me and was going to bring her home the next day. Mom came back home and asked me if I wanted to head to the emergency vets. When she came back home she said that the emergency vets called and said that Harper took a turn for a worse and there was a chance she wasn't going to survive. Mom told me they were performing CPR on her. I went over the emergency vets hoping that there was going to be a miracle and tell us that she pulled through.

They put us in a room when we got there and then vet came in saying that Harper passed away. The told us that what he thinks what happened was that a blood clot likely got loose that they wouldn't have seen on the xrays and was ultimately what killed her. They asked us if we wanted to see her and we agreed to. They wheeled her body covered in a blanket and we cried when the tech left. We petted Harper and said our goodbyes to her. I told mom that she was now keeping dad company in the afterlife.

What bothered me more about this than our other dogs was that with the other dogs that we had that died over the years we had them put down when it was their time. They were sick and we didn't want them to suffer anymore so putting them down was the right thing to do. With Harper dying it was just so senseless and traumatic. Why our youngest dog tore into her I don't know. None of this had to happen Harper should still be here barking at every little thing and wanting to go outside all the time. Looking for us to pet her and wanting extra treats in the morning.

u/MrJason2024 — 14 hours ago

Getting scammed

I've posted what happened to me before on some other subreddits but I will post about what happened to be in a slightly shorter for condensed form. So my story starts back in 2018 which looking back was a low point for me mentally. A year prior I had been transferred out of my department at my job at the time to another team which I didn't really like. My dad started to show signs of Parkinson's Disease which we did find out later that year that was what he had along with losing one of my uncles to drug use.

In the early part of 2018 I had started dating someone and we ended things after a few months. I figured that would be it for the rest of the year as I have been on record pretty awful with dating in general getting few people interested in me and never really keeping relationships going usually due to my actions. We also saw a staff reduction on our team at work so my mental state wasn't great.

In about the middle of May I was contacted by someone and we hit it off. We chatted a lot via text we liked similar things and I was quite interested in this person. At the time they were coming off very strong to me saying about they wanted to get physical with me and wanted to meet my family very early on before we even met. At the time I really didn't think much of it but that was the start of the love bombing that my scammer did to me. It was at the beginning of June 2018 when they started to scam me. First it was giftcards and while part of me knew that this wasn't right I ended up going along with it because I was worried I was repeating a past mistake I made (more on that later).

When they said we were going to meet which was a few weeks later something came up and she had to leave the country. She said she was going to be right back once everything was taken care but much like other scams that I have read about things kept "happening" that prevented her from coming back. This went on for years where not only did I end up giving them a lot of money which instead of using to pay my debts off I ended up with more debt and getting roped into getting a loan that I now have to pay back that I couldn't argue that I didn't get the loan for my own needs as I didn't have the text messages anymore to prove I didn't request the loan to begin with.

As time went on the amount progressed and the things they wanted to me do got more extreme. They wanted more and more money from me wanted me to open accounts for "jobs" which I called them out on. When I pushed back I got flak from them. They said they would kill themselves for a few times when I didn't do something. When I had to quit working to take care of my dad they kept asking for money when I told them I couldn't give anymore money as I had to make what I had last until I got steady income.

I got more tired of being in this and that was when I realized it was time to me to start making plans to get out. I got out from them about 2.5 years ago and its been quite eye opening to me about happened. When I got out I started looking up stuff about romance scams and that was when I realized about love bombing and finally understood that was what they were doing to me by making all of these promises to me right off the bat all just to scam me. I'm pretty sure I am not the only victim of this person they had a profile up on a dating site while scamming me.

I mentioned about that past mistake earlier. When I was a teen there was this classmate that liked me that I didn't date because I was a coward and then she died a few years later. This person who I did find the FB profile of the account they stole from was very attractive and I thought I was repeating the same mistake as I did years prior. That was what kept me from leaving earlier when I had a chance to leave I was so afraid of throwing something away because of what happened before. I should take that off ramp earlier when I did because while I would have been out of that money that I did give them I wouldn't have the other issues that I dealt with nor that loan that I got taken without my consent of what I was getting into.

I ended up hating myself for a long while because I stuff I did. Sexting, giving them money, opening accounts just to see them get closed, screwing my financial future all because I was chasing what I thought finally had found someone who I thought really did love me only for it just to be in love with a fake persona created to rob me blind.

Once I had blocked them I didn't hear from them for a long while. They texted me last October telling me how "I was the most beautiful thing in the life" and a bunch of other BS. I blocked them right away and felt good doing that I wasn't getting back into their trap. I was in the lowest mental state I had been at that time since my dad had died several weeks prior so I was in a mental state that should have gotten swept back into their grasp. However I had grown a lot since then and the fact that I blocked them again when I was in an even worse mental state showed I wasn't the same person I was a few years prior.

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u/MrJason2024 — 18 days ago

I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and deal with my self esteem

Meal is quiche and homemade wine.

I've had self esteem issues for years and at 41 I'm really just tired of being this way. I know bitching and moaning about it isn't helping me at all. I see myself at a loser because I haven't had certain experiences at my age but I know deep down I am not a loser I just need to not see myself that way.

Deep down I am know I am not unattractive but its hard to rewire your mind to not see yourself as ugly when you hear that a lot from your peers growing up that you are ugly.

I'm slowly getting there but I know I have a long ways to go before I stop having these thoughts about myself. Just taking it one day at a time.

u/MrJason2024 — 1 month ago