So gonna go with the macbook air M5. But am a little confused on what amount of unified memory and ssd is enough.
Is 16GB and 552GB enough?
It is pretty expensive but I have less than 24 hour window to make a decision so that I can get it for cheaper.
Please help outtt! I need to know if this will handle all the stuff I have to do in clg as this is gonna be a big expense for mee
Hey! I was focused on josaa all this time. I have only downloaded the verification slip. Idk the next steps. Please guideee
Hey! So do we all need to go get verified? I have category reservations + clause A. Im actually going through josaa counselling rn and dont understand how kcet counselling works at all. Btw I tried to scroll through the subreddit and didnt understand anything.
Just give me brief walkthrough of the things I have to do NOW
F. mil raha hai mock pe
I did everything I could or atleast I think I did but screwed this up so much. I wont get shit even with female reservation. Like I dont even have proper friends anymore. I dont have a social life. I literally expected so much but got so little. I put my marks through those calculator thingys and usually they are accurate and might f up around 5-10 marks. My entire life all I’ve had is being smart and now I dont even have that. I wanted end it even when I had that. I just wanna rip my skin out. Its one thing to do bad when the prep wasnt good and a whole other thing to f up when the only thing you did was this. I wanna blame my coaching cuz they didnt coach us for advance but I studied. I did the pyqs. I tried. I still couldnt f ing do it.
I hate that for once in my life I’ve had the will to f ing live and not wanting to end it even once for a pretty long period of time. All these years of feeling like shit but now as soon as I’ve finally felt good in my own fucking skin this happens. What kind of mental torture is this? If there is a god, then what was the point of giving me the will to live? Why make me feel worthy? I dont remember much from elementary school/middle school except walking up to the kitchen counter and trying to reach for the knife and couldnt, but she didnt know how to end it anyways, back then I still thought I had to stab myself in the chest. Everytime I try to find a little escape, a distraction, it got worse after the distraction ended. I should have known that the only reason it felt like life was going good/ felt hopeful was because it was a distraction.
I always knew it wouldnt end well for me cuz even if all my life I’ve been amazing at taking tests, I knew that I wouldnt actually be happy in the long run. But this time I dont even get the momentary little beam of energy. The only thing that has fueled my sense of self and my new found will to live. During this whole jee thing, something in me thought maybe life would end good. I’ll feel good. But this new found life didnt even start out good.
Cant end it. Cant live it. Just wish that that little girl had ended it right then and there.
Rant: I still havent completed the studying part. Starting to think my coaching screwed me over cuz they gave good enough coaching for mains but in honesty screwed up advanced. Like if you had told me that before hand, I wouldnt have joined. Nobody said anything, none of the seniors even mentioned it.
They didnt even guide us on what to read. Hell, they didnt even tell us about the existence of a couple of chapters. They quite literally gave us like a tiny bit of theory and said “for these chapters this info is absolutely enough” “no need to do anything else” yada yada yada. Only found out about other things cuz I redownloaded reddit 2 days ago. Btw they offer hostels (the whole no phones allowed even in your room sort of place) so obv we expect them to provide everything we need in terms of study material.
Tldr: coaching screwed me over and I need advice
Should I just keep solving pyqs at this point and hope for the best? Or read more theroy? (I have read p block, polymers, solid state and surface chem. Will read salt analysis. )
Apparently we have to book slots for document verification? But cant open it. It says invalid userid or password. I tried resetting the password but not receiving otp. How to fix this? I cant even download the application form.