u/Mundane_Spray_6801

My long-term bf started orientation as an M1 this week, and I’m already feeling shamefully a bit resentful. We’re long distance for now, around 2 hours away from each other. My apartment lease doesn’t end until the end of the month, so it doesn’t make sense for me to move until August so that I don’t have to pay two leases.

While he’s been excited about everything, I’ve been struggling. I’m finding it hard to not feel behind while I apply to OT school as a nontraditional applicant, and this week has felt especially rough with job applications and stress of shadowing hours. Yesterday for instance, I drove 4 hours round trip to drop off some things for him, listened to him talk about his excitement, and barely got a word out. I feel like I should be better at this. My family is majority healthcare, and I’ve seen my mom and several aunts in the roles of med spouse. It’s just hard to feel like I’m the supporting character to someone else’s dreams while I don’t feel like I know if mine will happen yet. I know he can’t do anything to fix my application and post-undergrad stress, but I just want someone to ask me how my day was and mean it.

Hi, I'm a nontraditional undergrad path applicant who is planning on OT. My overall GPA isn't great. I just graduated with a 3.06, however I had some significant mental health struggles in undergrad. I battled an eating disorder, became diagnosed with severe, ADHD, and went through an abusive relationship, all of which were barriers to my ability to succeed well in my first tow years of undergrad in particular. My prereq GPA has been on the up and up recently, but I plan on redoing some classes this summer (stats and abnormal psych) to boost it. Both of those classes were ones in which I received Cs. I've received As in human development courses and sociology, an AB in medical terminology, and Bs in anatomy and physics. Additionally, I have experience as a swim instructor and registered yoga teacher, I work in a graduate-level adapted fitness research lab at my R1, and will be applying for jobs as a CNA and rehab aide. I also did my capstone project on an adapted fitness program for adults with down syndrome. Additionally I currently have 20 hours of shadowing, but plan to increase those over the upcoming gap year as well.

Although I have had improvement in my grades since prioritizing my mental health and I have graduated from a pretty academically-rigorous university, I do feel like the best way I could improve my application over the next year would be to redo the courses that I have received Cs in. That being said, I would not have the opportunity to redo physiology likely until September. Is it worth redoing in September as planned and then explaining to schools, or should I reorganize my summer to plan on physiology and plan for abnormal psych and stats in the fall? Any and all brutally honest advice is appreciated. Thanks!