u/Musiumahatma

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I (29m) started this challange about 6 month ago and relapsed multiple times. I have been consuming porn for almost 15 years. my previous record was 26 days. I was determined to achive day 90 before i turn 30. this time my friend (31f) joined me on this path and stopped fapping too. we are doing this together this time. she has experienced quitting porn years ago and ever since she rarely does it. the first 10 days was a nonstop hell to be honest. the pressure of failing was so much more this time. Its a blessing and a curse at the same time to know someone is doing this with you. day 10 to 30 was a little better. the urges got less frequent but we faced some problems that were not in our control. We live in iran and there are bad news everywhere. Right now we are at the middle of a war and there is internet blackout. I was barely able to connet after 60 days of not having internet. if it wasn't for my friend i Guess i would have relapsed on the first 10 days this time tbh.

On day 80 i had my first ever wet dream in my life.

On day 90 we celebrated. She told me that she is determined to continue but it's ok if i masterbate. She told me until the war is over, i can do it but only if i do it controlled. For example once a week or something like that. She said after the war is over we can continue this path but its ok to control it till that day. She asked me not to tell her if i did it. On that day I watched porn for some minutes and touched myself but i stopped. My birthday was coming and i wanted to at least wait until then. (It would be day 130). I told her I'm still in and she got happy and supports my decision. Unfortunately On day 120 she faced some health issues and told me she can't do this anymore. I don't blame her. She saved me by being on my side till day 120. So now it's only me. I have been single ever since i was born in a religious family so although it's not impossible but having a partner and experiencing sex is not that much of an option rn for me. unless i Get married which is not financially possible. i live in iran and the economy sucks. Also the daily news are making it harder to stay on path. she told me that my urges are coming from my addiction and it's diffrent after i quit but since i never have experienced anything sexual exept porn i have no idea to be honest.

After 134 days and no bright future, i am considering masterbating but on a controlled schedule. I feel alot different from my earlier days. I have tasted being in control and i don't like to lose it now. On one hand i think i need to do this because my body deserve some rest but on the other hand i am so afraid of doing it and i don't know why tbh. I was about to do it last night but I didn't.

Update:

It's day 188 and I haven't masturbated yet. I have seen porn again 2 ir 3 times but thankfully I could stop myself before it's too late. I genuinely don't recoment this to anyone. I couldn't decide yet what to do for the upcoming days. Its been almost 6 months sincemy last orgasm. If i want to be so hard on myself i might have to consider my porn wathings relapse but idk. I fear not being trapped in the cycle again. I haven't experienced masturbating without porn in my life so I have no idea whether should i consider it or not. I have experienced wet dreams on day 80 but not any more ever since!

It's so much harder if you don't have a partner and you don't see any clear future to have one.

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I (29m) started this challange about 6 month ago and relapsed multiple times. I have been consuming porn for almost 15 years. my previous record was 26 days. I was determined to achive day 90 before i turn 30. this time my friend (31f) joined me on this path and stopped fapping too. we are doing this together this time. she has experienced quitting porn years ago and ever since she rarely does it. the first 10 days was a nonstop hell to be honest. the pressure of failing was so much more this time. Its a blessing and a curse at the same time to know someone is doing this with you. day 10 to 30 was a little better. the urges got less frequent but we faced some problems that were not in our control. We live in iran and there are bad news everywhere. Right now we are at the middle of a war and there is internet blackout. I was barely able to connet after 60 days of not having internet. if it wasn't for my friend i Guess i would have relapsed on the first 10 days this time tbh.

On day 80 i had my first ever wet dream in my life.

On day 90 we celebrated. She told me that she is determined to continue but it's ok if i masterbate. She told me until the war is over, i can do it but only if i do it controlled. For example once a week or something like that. She said after the war is over we can continue this path but its ok to control it till that day. She asked me not to tell her if i did it. On that day I watched porn for some minutes and touched myself but i stopped. My birthday was coming and i wanted to at least wait until then. (It would be day 130). I told her I'm still in and she got happy and supports my decision. Unfortunately On day 120 she faced some health issues and told me she can't do this anymore. I don't blame her. She saved me by being on my side till day 120. So now it's only me. I have been single ever since i was born in a religious family so although it's not impossible but having a partner and experiencing sex is not that much of an option rn for me. unless i Get married which is not financially possible. i live in iran and the economy sucks. Also the daily news are making it harder to stay on path. she told me that my urges are coming from my addiction and it's diffrent after i quit but since i never have experienced anything sexual exept porn i have no idea to be honest.

After 134 days and no bright future, i am considering masterbating but on a controlled schedule. I feel alot different from my earlier days. I have tasted being in control and i don't like to lose it now. On one hand i think i need to do this because my body deserve some rest but on the other hand i am so afraid of doing it and i don't know why tbh. I was about to do it last night but I didn't.

Update:

It's day 188 and I haven't masturbated yet. I have seen porn again 2 ir 3 times but thankfully I could stop myself before it's too late. I genuinely don't recoment this to anyone. I couldn't decide yet what to do for the upcoming days. Its been almost 6 months sincemy last orgasm. If i want to be so hard on myself i might have to consider my porn wathings relapse but idk. I fear not being trapped in the cycle again. I haven't experienced masturbating without porn in my life so I have no idea whether should i consider it or not. I have experienced wed dreams on day 80 but not any more ever since!

It's so much harder if you don't have a partner and you don't see any clear future to have one.

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I (29m) started this challange about 6 month ago and relapsed multiple times. I have been consuming porn for almost 15 years. my previous record was 26 days. I was determined to achive day 90 before i turn 30. this time my friend (31f) joined me on this path and stopped fapping too. we are doing this together this time. she has experienced quitting porn years ago and ever since she rarely does it. the first 10 days was a nonstop hell to be honest. the pressure of failing was so much more this time. Its a blessing and a curse at the same time to know someone is doing this with you. day 10 to 30 was a little better. the urges got less frequent but we faced some problems that were not in our control. We live in iran and there are bad news everywhere. Right now we are at the middle of a war and there is internet blackout. I was barely able to connet after 60 days of not having internet. if it wasn't for my friend i Guess i would have relapsed on the first 10 days this time tbh.

On day 80 i had my first ever wet dream in my life.

On day 90 we celebrated. She told me that she is determined to continue but it's ok if i masterbate. She told me until the war is over, i can do it but only if i do it controlled. For example once a week or something like that. She said after the war is over we can continue this path but its ok to control it till that day. She asked me not to tell her if i did it. On that day I watched porn for some minutes and touched myself but i stopped. My birthday was coming and i wanted to at least wait until then. (It would be day 130). I told her I'm still in and she got happy and supports my decision. Unfortunately On day 120 she faced some health issues and told me she can't do this anymore. I don't blame her. She saved me by being on my side till day 120. So now it's only me. I have been single ever since i was born in a religious family so although it's not impossible but having a partner and experiencing sex is not that much of an option rn for me. unless i Get married which is not financially possible. i live in iran and the economy sucks. Also the daily news are making it harder to stay on path. she told me that my urges are coming from my addiction and it's diffrent after i quit but since i never have experienced anything sexual exept porn i have no idea to be honest.

After 134 days and no bright future, i am considering masterbating but on a controlled schedule. I feel alot different from my earlier days. I have tasted being in control and i don't like to lose it now. On one hand i think i need to do this because my body deserve some rest but on the other hand i am so afraid of doing it and i don't know why tbh. I was about to do it last night but I didn't.