I think that's often come up with my psychologist is fights between alters over what to do. I fight to do the easier passive thing, another wants to do in depth research. I can't let them in unless they have a clear, precise plan of what they will do, which is not really a fair expectation because I don't hold it for myself.
Do others experience this? How do you manage it?
I can't tell you how at home I felt. So many genuine, kind people. People who had similar interests to me, that I'd written off as something to just keep to myself. I could fully be myself and felt appreciated for it. I can't wait for more. These people are my people.
I just wanted to share how affirming and beautiful the night was.
I noticed the first sign, and went up to take a look. Then saw the neighbour had the Karen sign. I'm not going to lie, I laughed.
Having met both of them, my assumption is that the guy put up the Karen sign, then the neighbours put this up in response. He's been nice to me, but I don't think they're wrong about him, and I've personally been glad he's not my neighbour for a few reasons (dog barking til the early hours, all the drinkers gather at his place to loudly day drink, let his dog pee in the hall and didn't clean it, etc). The other neighbours are a younger couple and she seems nice but not afraid to speak her mind. I'm not surprised something broke out there. I've honestly been wondering how long it'll be before he gets an eviction notice.
I just wanted to share with people who may understand. I just received my legal documents changing my name. I'm no longer associated with my birth name, and what I deeply related to me being my abuser's property. I feel so excited, like I've just been reborn!
It was a name decided on by my system as a whole, after an alter who has since fused, that represented the calm and loving nature of the system. It feels like stepping from an abused identity as a whole, to a hopeful identity as a whole. I am who I want to be.