Getting divorced from my husband after 15 years together. Meal prep - Baked banana walnut choco chip oatmeal.
Been together since I was 19 and he was 18. Getting divorced at 35. We had "the talk" that set it all off on 4/19. We've been living together still but going through our stuff and starting to pack and prep to move out and move on. I still love him so insanely much, but we just do not communicate well with each other and have hurt each other a lot too. I think it's the most compassionate thing in the long run, but it's so difficult to imagine what my future is going to look like without him. He's been here my entire adult life and we've known each other for five years longer than that, too.
I found the notebook I wrote my wedding speech and vows in today and threw it out. I debated keeping it, but it just felt like a reminder of the promises I couldn't keep and not something I wanted to have around.
I don't really feel like I exist right now. This entire experience is so surreal. Some days I wish I could just wake up and it was all a bad dream, but it keeps continuing.
On a more positive note. I started going to the gym and started taking martial arts classes. I've been working on my eating habits and I've already lost 17lbs in the last month or so. I've almost entirely kicked a 20 year long soda habit.