u/Mysterious_Ear_5111

I've been through the loss of several people lately, and am going through the normal process of Grief. However, my way of dealing with it is to remain stoic, and then process my emotions via activities such as going to the gym, reflective writing, and spending time in nature.

However, my Supervisor at work keeps insisting that I see a Therapist. Every time I see her, she keeps asking: "Have you found someone to talk to yet?"

I've been to therapy in the past, and have been given multiple different diagnoses. The diagnoses that have been given have been largely due to the fact that the particular practitioner had a special interest in that area. For example, a Psychologist specializing in trauma diagnosed me with 'Complex PTSD' and 'ADHD', whereas a Psychiatrist who was interested in Autism diagnosed me with 'Autistic Spectrum Disorder'.

The Psychologist specializing in trauma used EMDR and Parts Therapy. But I found these approaches to be somewhat abusive and invalidating. I wanted to talk about my feelings, but the EMDR prevented that, and the Parts Therapy forced me to try and imagine that I had multiple different sub-personalities. I kept thinking: This therapy is absolute bullshit, but tried to make up the Parts to go along with the therapy.

Recently, I saw a therapist and paid $300.00 per hour, because it was mandated at that time by a regulatory body that controls the profession that I am in. The therapist was a nice person, but talking about my feelings didn't help. Further, he revealed that he had children, and this led to me not wanting to fully open up about how much of a bad place I think this world is, and how grim I believe the future will be for the next generations [out of consideration for his feelings].

Further, I'm not really sure what the Goals of therapy would be.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation?