help
I’m stuck. I’ve been stuck for a while. I’m hoping anyone can hear me. Everyday I move through the world in a very quiet manner. I somehow do things. My nervous system has not relaxed for ages. Like that feeling of being hunted by a tiger, except it never leaves. I have chronic pain and am pretty dissociated at all times.
I know how to not make others worry, and say and act in ways that won’t scare others. None of it is really me though, not the real me.
I’ve done a million things to try to help.
I’m exhausted, and need help. I need any light, anything. I get clear bursts of intuition sometimes, I have prophetic dreams, and creative visions. But they die before I can channel them into something.
I have no insurance or money to seek any kind of help and honestly I have such a low tolerance for hearing peoples voices bc i’m busy dealing with a million invisible ones inside me that any other chatter to the conversation hurts. I know this is an issue. I’m not looking for judgment. I’m looking for
clear steps, to cut to the chase and give me something tangible to help daily. Thank you