Help, I (20f) might be in love with my best friend (24f), but I was just asked out by a girl (18f) I met on a dating app around a month ago and I need help, there's too many feeling and I need help?
For the record, both are queer and into women. BUT: A little bit of context, My friend (24F, we'll call her R) and I (20f) have known each other for at least 6 months now and we met through her ex-partner (22m). While I'll admit I started crushing on her while they where still together I never made any advances and have been her bestie before anything else. Now I'm not going to get into it but her EX was extremely toxic and that ended with a lot of fallout. It's mostly over now and R and I have expressed mutual interest a few times now, but I don't want to push her into anything she might not be ready or comfortable for/with by making the first move as she has a habit of being a people pleaser and I'd hate to hurt her by mistake (I've also clearly told her I'm her bestie before all else a few times so she doesn't feel pressured). But she has told me she gets a little jealous when I flirt with other women, this makes me feel as if she's into me and just waiting for the right time? I'm really not sure anymore. But this does bring us to the person I met on a dating app (18f, we'll call her B) and she's recently asked me out. I've felt some good chemistry with them and we get along very well. The other night I was having issues and a small panic attack and they helped calm me down, part of that was them being forward and asking me out (which did a tone to boost my mood lol) but now I'm lost and have no clue how to move forward. This is where I need help and well- the bestie i usually ask for help is part of this story so i turn to random internet strangers </3
I don't feel like I could be in a relationship with B and not at least wonder what could / might have been with R. But at the same time, B made a move, there's mutual interests and a lot of chemistry and I've been single for a fair amount of time and I'm so damn sick of it. I've waited a few months for R to make a move and they have yet to, and B is still an amazing person who makes me happy and is local (a town away and probably about 45 min away) whereas R is a country away and several hours away. I'm just overwhelmed and sacred I'll fuck up. I feel like I'm choosing a safer / secure option over what might be a bit of a gamble for what might be better? I'm really not sure and I need opinions and thoughts to help me make sense of this mess.
Thanks in advance for reading and offering any advise at all <3
