I'm done.
I feel like this this is the only place I can open up and someone will hear me.
Through my whole life I had only few friends that they are all gone bc of life everyone is doing his own thing and I get it. All that ended up with me being totally alone. I met a guy that was long distance and we were into each other before we started dating I asked multiple times if he's okay with being long distance and he said he is totally fine and willing to stay with me until it happens and we meet. We dated couple of months and it was the best months in my life we we're perfect together and I finally found someone that makes the conversation interesting and we speak all day without anyone of us getting bored. He had depression so after a couple of months he started feeling it getting to him again bc he wanted physical love too which I couldn't give him bc we're far. He had to be hospitalized he said we need a break during that bc he will want me more if we keep talking and that will hurt him.
Time passed he came back and I thought maybe it is just a break and we didn't break up we talked couple of days then he told me that he couldn't do it and we need to end things. Found out yesterday that he had a new partner in his life through Letterboxd and liked it then he texted me and told me that he's feeling better now and he can get emotional and physical love now.
That completely left me destroyed bc I haven't done anything bad to him I really tried my best yet this happened. Idk what to do bc I really can't move on from this one bc he was the most perfect guy I've ever met...