u/NagisoNagi

"It's just getting distracted" "everyone gets distracted sometimes" "everyone is a little ADHD" "ADHD is not real", I DID NOT SUFFER MY WHOLE LIFE, FEELING HORRIBLE ABOUT MYSELF AND NEVER BEING ABLE TO DO EVERYTHING I WANTED TO JUST TO HAVE FUCKERS SAY THIS, NO I DIDN'T. You DON'T have ADHD just because you get distracted, SHUT UP.

I've suffered so much bcs of early unlimited phone access already, and ADHD only made it even worse, it developed into other disorders like anxiety, OCD and symptoms of BPD, ALL diagnosed btw, my mind needs to be constantly stimulated, I always focus only on what I enjoy and end up ignoring other stuff even if I don't want to. I felt useless everyday at school, every single day it was a nightmare, I would punish myself with not eating if I got bad grades and would be up until really late doing homework, a lot of days I didn't even sleep, and now that I'm in college NONE OF THE METHODS I'VE USED TO SURVIVE HIGH SCHOOL WORK ANYMORE, ALL OF THEM ARE USELESS, the worst part is I've been called smart by my therapist, yknow how painful it is to be basically told "you have potential!" And know you can never use it? I can't never believe her because I can't trust myself for anything, I don't think I'm smart because maybe if I was smart I'd be able to be a little better than I am, and even if I was it's useless because it doesn't matter how smart you are if you aren't functional.

I'm literally at the lowest point of my life and I know it's not only ADHD to blame, but I just wonder, if I didn't have this mental disorder, would I have been able to be happy? Watching people just make fun of it, say stupid things like those, when i can't even eat sometimes because I want to throw up from my meds, it sickens me to a point I can't even express, if you are like that do better.

I got a little emotional sorryyy have a nice day :)

I'm making circular keychains made out of clay and I need ideas to paint them!! I already know I'll paint the three moons, but idk what else to paint, sorry for bad Eng btw lol, tyyy n.n

(By the wayyy, I'm sticking to less complicated things because I'm not very good with paint! But gimme all the ideas you want!!!)

HIII 💚 the gambling addiction kinda took over and I used up my 20 wishes I was planning on saving, and now I'm really worried because I don't know if she'll come back in another chronicled! I don't want these pulls to be for absolutely nothing, I really wanna get her and baizhu in the future :(( I'm also scared bcs I wanna wait for at least a year before pulling again, and I have to know whether or not my pity will still be there after a year, I'm sorry for the dumb questions, I'm just really bad managing resources and I'm a little terrified rn

Take care 💚🌸