u/Naive-Bicycle7650

i will never admit this to anybody i know, i rather die honestly, but i had a dream yesterday where i hugged a guy, i begged him "please protect me, please take care of me" nonstop

i dont want to live my life alone, i dont want to take decisions, i dont want to be the one living my life, i want someone who controls my money, life decisions, friendships, i just dont want to have the responsibility im scared

that will never happen firstly because i will never open like that to someone and that no one wants to take care of someone like theyre a kid obviously

i always hated whenever i saw the words "slut" or anything sex related degradation in a fanfic or anything in general, i thought i simply wasnt into degradation but i think it goes further than that

i found out i liked when i imagined getting called useless or in specific anything that meant i couldnt do nothing right without someone else, which is how i have felt my entire life, and being called "good for nothing" by my parents all the time

i knew some kinks come from trauma but i didnt thought about it until now